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JR, I appreciate the comments and information that you gave. I recently received a healing from this childhood trauma. I am much better able to move on with my life. I was thinking about what had happened to me and wondering why these things happen at all. Then thoughts, totally foreign to me, began to enter my mind. The message I got was: "It IS NOT for you to understand why, but it IS for you to forgive." So, I began to fully forgive these things and have not been consumed by them since. I'm doing okay now. I no longer feel the urge to eat to stifle my emotions. I hope I continue to use food properly. I Hope my experience may help someone else who has spent years wondering "WHY" to move past that point (because there is never an acceptable answer as to why we suffered child molestation) and let the Creator of all living beings separate the wheat from the chaff on Judgement Day. ❤️

Thank You, G33kg1rl, for your help. I have not gotten The Courage To Heal workbook yet, but I need to try it. I have read two books by different authors on the subject and tried to apply the info but it didn't help. I watch My 600 lb. Life to see what the therapists tell the difficult patients, hoping and praying that it will resonate in MY head. Because I have no idea why I learned to use food to not feel guilt and shame for what two adults did to me at the age of five. Food was the only thing available to me at that time that would distract me from feeling scared, guilty, dirty, worried, etc. Though I'm getting old, I just want peace with food for the rest of my life. I can't stand the way it seems to control me still. The doctors say I'm not a surgical candidate because I have a blood clotting disorder. But I will never give up my journey to overcome the thing that has ruined my life for so many years. Thank You again for helping me. 💕

I would just like some help with information on this type of root cause for obesity and anyone who has overcome the problem. Any help will be greatly and gratefully appreciated. I spent over 20 years in counseling with licensed counselors with this degree : LCSW. I was not helped whatsoever by any of them. My insurance would not pay for psychology and would pay very little for psychiatry. So, I never got THE ANSWERS that have eluded me. I am almost 55 now. I weighed 389 at my known highest weight and am now at 284. All but 20 pounds of loss was due to illness (gastroparesis). I've known a lot of obese women and a few men who admitted that molestation was the beginning of their weight problem. But none had any answers and were just as blind as me on how to overcome this problem. Please help...😕