MSinger

Ran my first 5k yesterday! Ran the entire time. 

I am now working as a server at Cracker Barrel, sometimes able to do 2 back to back 15 hour days which is a long way from where I was 1 year ago. But I am now down 197lbs @ 16 months post op

It's my 1 year surgiversary!!!!  106lbs down from pre -op weight and 130lbs down from my highest weight.

What a wonderful hubby. He sent me a video text telling me that he wants me to focus on getting my mommy makeover that I want. Sure I’d have to wait for it (I am only 5 months post) but I have his total support with it. He says it’ll be my anniversary gift. 😊 I’ll take it! I better start saving now. 

9 months post op and 65 lbs. down. I am happy with this weight, I feel really good here, normalish...
I can no longer "shop" in my own closet. I am in size L strechy pants and size 14 jeans. I still grab the XL/16 when I go shopping, because I'm convinced it's all vanity sizing. 
I need to work on treats and social food gatherings. I allow myself too much. I am determined to get to goal over the next few months, so I will be changing my evening snack, and saying no to the Halloween treats that will be in the office over the next few weeks.
Things I am still doing right:
- Tracking my food...honestly 
- Waiting 1/2 hour after eating, to drink
- Focusing on protein
- No chips or white bread in the house
- 15 min walk during the week
- Eating out less
 

So the ex-bf is completely out of the picture. I could not handle the uncertainty of his behaviors. One day he likes the way I dressed, the next day I was begging for attention. Once he started with the insecurities, I had to let it go. Truthfully, it did not hurt me as much as I thought it would. And that is because I had falling in love with someone else. 
I fell in love with a woman. She is the most funny, beautiful and caring person I have ever met. She is strong, confident and dorky at the same time. She is everything I ever wanted in a person and she is ME!! I FELL IN LOVE with MYSELF again. I forgot the person I used to be and went searching for her and I found her. I never want to lose her again. If that meant giving up someone else for the sack of myself, then I would do what is necessary to keep me as a I am.
I guess sometimes you have to be selfish. I cannot sacrifice my success to make someone else fell secure in themselves. I cannot sacrifice my peace of mind to give some one a peace of mind. I just could not keep living my life through other peoples wants, hopes and desires. I want to live my life for me. I have wants, hopes and desires and I plan on making them happen. 
"Like a Phoenix, out of the Ashes comes NEW LIFE!"

SURGERY in 30 minutes ...... I'm currently in the hospital pre op and I'm just so excited the day is finally here ..... I'll keep everyone updated

Today I finally hit 100 pounds lost since my highest weight! I'm pretty stoked, and hoping I can get to goal weight by the time of my one-year surgiversary. 

There is a hill that is along my bike route to work. Everyday I ride, I take that hill. Today was the first time that I made it to the top without having to stop. I am getting stronger a bike rider. My calories for today are 672 but that does not include dinner. I will be buying Standard Gold Whey Protein Powder to add to my fruit smoothies. 1 scoop is like 26g of protein (Something that is much needed as I am trying to build muscle). I am having a hard time increasing my protein intake in the form of food lately. I just have not been hungry.
Things I am adding to my diet to see if I can take them:
1) Whey Protein
2) Dannon Oikos Triple Zero 
Also, I have started doing mediation to help alleviate some stress. I retain weight when I am stressed out. It also causes pain in my neck and back because that is where I hold all my tension. I also want to be flexible and by relaxing myself, I am able to stretch and bend a lot easier. 

October is breast cancer month - congrats to my fellow survivors - to ALL others - please have a mammogram immediately - i am an 18 year proud survivor!!   "i'm still standing" - Elton John   - kathy

I fit into a size 12 ya'll. A SIZE 12!!!! OMG!!! Yes. I only lost 2.2 lbs but I dropped 2 dress sizes. I have to get a 14 in pants because my butt is big and the 12 wont go past my booty. 
This week is buffalo chicken for lunch and breakfast is turkey bacon and eggs. That is small bag of ranch (1 tbsp). 

Two weeks post op today. Since beginning the program, am down 47 pounds, 13 pounds since surgery on September 18th. Did have some "constipation issues" but Miralax did not help. So, got some puree baby food prunes. and had 1 container on 2 consecutive days which did the trick on day 10 post op. Have been working on keeping the protein way up, since we were told in the post op class that it takes 90-100 g of protein to prevent hair loss, So, throughout the day I drink two 16 oz Protein-2-0 (30g protein isolate total 120 calories), 1 premier protein (30 g protein 160 calories) I usually have a serving of bone broth (10g protein and 50 calories). So, 70 g protein in 330 calories. Then have soft chicken or fish for the rest of the protein.  Stopped the pain meds 3 days ago, was taking 1 at night time, but they were getting me very unmotivated to move around and wanting to sleep too much. All in all, things are going well.

I am getting ready to go for a run this morning. It will be my first time at this distance 4.5 mi. My training plan has me gradually increasing my long runs and next Sunday I will be doing 6.0. I know I can do this. I am ready, it is exciting, but if I am honest it is also little intimidating seeing all of these dates on my calendar with 3.0-8.5 mi runs for the next 3 months. Gone are the quick 2 mile runs. I will need to get up a little earlier if I am going to be able to do a 4+ run during the week before work. I am proud of myself  I never dreamed I would be a runner. My dh is joining me now on Sunday runs and it is great that we can do this together.

So I have come to the conclusion that I have a racer back gym shirt problem. I keep buying more shirts and they are soo cute and they make me feel cute. I am still kicking butt on my workouts and I have decided to end Keto for now. I have been stressing a lot about food and unfortunately, I hold on to weight that way. It is time to go back to just being mindful of what I eat and how much. 
Although I look great in clothing, I wanted to show what my body looks like outside of it. My stomach is sagging lower than before I lost weight. My arms are sagging and my breast have deflated. 
With that being said, I would not go back and change anything. I would not give up being able to jump, bike, go shopping easily and feel comfortable in clothes for anything. I would not trade this confidence or happiness. I am soo a peace with myself and my body. The aches that I feel are from soreness of pushing my body, than from being too heavy that my body cannot handle the weight. 
This journey has saved my life in more ways than I could ever imagine. I do not hide from the world anymore. I do not hide from people. I go out and want to explore. I meet new people. I have been freed from the burdens my weight had placed on me mentally and physically. 
With being said, "I LOVE MY IMPERFECTLY PERFECT BODY!!" 

GOAL WEIGHT PICS. Photos of now @ 68kgs/150lbs (24/9/17) and Pre Op weight 100kgs/ 220.5lbs (20/3/17). Very happy.

It's my 11 month surgiversary!  I'm down 105lbs and I have 45lbs left to go.  My surgeon and I agreed on 150 as my stopping point today.  I was so excited to be one of his sleeve patients who have lost over 100lbs. I guess we are few and far between in his office.  Never looking back!

Tomorrow's the big day, they day that I move onto the losers bench!

Very excited this morning. Good things have been coming my way all week. I finally got over my stall (which ended up being dehydration) and have entered "onederland".  I have gone from a 40J to a 36H (start weight at 256). And to wrap it up even more nicely, my husband had an very successful surgery for his battle with cancer this Friday. Very excited and happy and a million other things. 

I weighed 181 this morning.  Only 1 more pound until goal, and the one year anniversary of my surgery date is Thursday.  Seems appropriate!!

HAPPY 39th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! 
Yep, today's my birthday and I'll scream it out loud for all the world to hear.  Why?  Not for birthday wishes, but because of the birthdays I had growing up weren't really celebrated too much.  When I became an adult, I would always be depressed on this day.  I had enough of it two years ago and had a revelation (thanks to my brother) and decided that from now on, I will celebrate my birthday and be happy on this day. I believe that this is the day that God has made and He and all His angels are rejoicing because I was made!!! I won't be sad anymore.  Sure, things come up, like today my four year old had the biggest epic fit over a pair of pants (and at school--the first ever) and also today, I'm missing work because I'm not feeling well, and have to go see the doctor as well.  I even weighed myself to see if I made it to onderland, but that didn't happen either.  But despite the negative stuff, I am well, TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY AND I WILL BE HAPPY.  
 

I purchased a blouse last week at Nordstrom without trying it on, just looked at it on the rack and purchased. I went back to get it in another color yesterday because when I wore it yesterday I loved it. I automatically picked the large because I assumed that was the size I had on. I asked the sales person to double check the tag of the top I was wearing, It was a medium! I usually buy medium tops now but sometimes I forget and grab larges. The sales person said "You have to remember you are little now!" That made me feel so good. When she said that, she had no idea how large I was when I started. When people that didn't know me when I was huge comment that I am small, it really helps it sink in with me that I am actually a small person now.

9/12 - Went to the trainer to new a training regiment. The first was just cardio and light lifting to get me smaller and my body to be a lot more flexible. Now, is the real stuff. I have a HIIT workout 3 days out of the week. Heavy cardio of 30/30 for 45 minutes and a light elliptical day. 
Monday: HIIT
Tuesday: 30/30 Cardio
Wednesday: HIIT 
Thursday: Light Elliptical 
Friday: HIIT 
She says now its time to get to the real stuff. She knows that I want my body to look like and she created this to start me off. I have 4 weeks of it. She also added room to modify the work out if I am really hurting to do one less set. I am just so excited. This a work out that she does but her's is way more intense and done a faster pace. Will be increasing my calorie intake from 775 to 1000 calories on these HIIT days. I will need to make sure that I am eating enough to sustain my body. 
9/17 - My mom decided to buy me a Pandora Bracelet. Lol she was not prepare for the cost of it and told me, "Happy Birthmas" lol. She told me to add charms and numbers for every goal I achieved. She told me she was proud of me and was so happy for all my hard work. 

I just got back from a 3 week work trip (with 2 fun weekends thrown in).  I lost 3 pounds during that time, and I weighed 182 this morning.  I am now a normal BMI and 2 pounds from goal.  (Although I seriously question whether I really need to lose 2 more pounds...)  Exciting time!!

Yesterday was my day!  After 10 months and 14 days, I can  now officially say I am 100 pounds down.  Forty more to go before I consider plastics.

This morning I went walking on a trail near my house. 2 years ago walking that trail used to wear me out. Now it is effortless.