Smiling while reading your message because you sound so much like myself. Start out clearly and get in deeper and then you ramble? LOL same here. I think a lot of people feel the same way you do and have so many worries and questions and second-guessing. At least that's all I'm reading over and over on several sites. I am in my 5th month pre op and a sugar, diet coke , emotional eater addict I have NOT been doing my healthy eating last few months steadily. I stress on surgery and being denied too.