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I was afraid in the holding room for surgery. The surgeon was a few minutes late. In my mind I said if she is not here in 20 minutes I'm asking to have this IV removed and I'm going home. She got there at about minute 15. In the operating room I was still afraid. I was literally begging the anesthesiologist to hurry and knock me out. I'm so glad that I didn't change my mind. I'm 8 weeks out. Highest weight 330 Starting pre-op diet 306 Surgery weight 292 Current weight 249.6 Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Same here. No strenuous activity until after 6 week visit Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Same here. No strenuous activity until after 6 week visit Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

I think it's just a doctor's preference. I had to do a two week pre-op. I was allowed one meal a day of salad and 3 oz. lean meat. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Congratulations!! Can't wait to join you. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

I got a letter one day saying they needed more info from surgeon. I called surgeon 2 days later. Surgeon stated they had already received approval letter. I got approval in the mail the next day. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

I had gastric bypass March 8th. Cigna required 90 days or 4 months medically supervised weight loss. Starting weight plus 3 months after that equalling 4 months Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Post surgery I cannot tolerate Premier shakes. Nectar whey protein have been a life saver. They come in a variety of flavors. Even coffee flavors. They taste more like juice than a shake. 7 weeks out. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Hope things go quick. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

Beautiful!!!! Can't wait to join you. Sent from my Z981 using BariatricPal mobile app

I went to Sam's today and got 2 cases of shakes and bars for my 2 week pre-op diet. I have to start Wednesday of next week. Since I left Sam's I have this overwhelming since of fear. Buying those shakes have made this so real. I'm so afraid that I will fail. At this point failure is not an option. I'm 41 years old with a beautiful 4 year old daughter.(my only child) I have to live for my daughter. She deserves a mother who can actively participate in her life. I am feeling so overwhelmed right now. I really need an encouraging words.

It's the strong antibiotics for the h pylori. Its 3 different antibiotics at once. I took them prior to surgery. I felt horrible. I was tired and nauseous starting about a day 4. It will get better.

I went in yesterday for my 3 week post op visit(had to be hospitalized) and the surgeon told me to start trying crumbly meats like ground beef and turkey. I almost said lady are you crazy. I'm afraid to try anything. I've only had egg drop soup and pudding. I was afraid to do scrambled eggs this morning. I don't know when I will be able to move on.

WOW. I thought it was just me. I'm 14 days out and can no longer stand them. I drank them daily in pre-op.

CONGRATS. I had my surgery 3/8/17. The nervousness and excitement are to be expected. I went through a range of emotions the week prior to surgery. I almost changes my mind. I'm so glad I didn't.

Hi. I started this process September 2016. I had a colonoscopy done in October 2016 and a 7cm mass was found. I had a right hemicolectomy on November 16 where they removed a foot of my colon including the secum and appendix. Thank God the mass was benign. The surgeon initially said I may have to get sleeved because of the surgery. Well I had gastric bypass on March 8th. So there is hope. I will be praying for you.

Here I am sitting in my car eating my salad with only vegetables and fat free dressing as described in my pre-op diet. I'm 6 days out and horrified. I'm on the verge of changing my mind. I'm having so many emotions I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm actually mourning the loss of food. Everything I see, my heart literally hurts. My mind constantly says you will never have that again. I don't have any underlying issues. I was never molested or abused in any manner. My parents have been married for 52 years. I just love food. I love the way it looks smells and tastes. I feel like I'm loosing a friend. I want to back out so bad but I need the surgery so bad. My health is horrible. I take 2 shots for diabetes and take 4 pills. Along with 2 blood pressure meds. Most of a I have a four year old daughter that I love so much and would die for. How ironic is it that I would die for her but at this very moment I'm dieing because I love food. My daughter is my life. I'm doing this for. She needs me. She is more excited about me loosing weight than I am. Everything day she says Mommy when you loose weight we are going to have so much fun. She wants us to ride bikes, run, and jump. This morning she said when you loose weight we can wear the same dress and yours won't be tight. She just has this vision of us running through a field of flowers. She deserves this. So why am I having second thoughts. I need this so bad but I'm so afraid of the aftermath. Sorry for rambling but my mind I'd going 90 miles per hour

Still here in holding. I wish the doctor would hurry. Getting more nervous by the minute.

Today is my big day. I'm sitting here in holding waiting to go back. I'm scared and excited at the same time. I will post later.

Thanks

Here I am still venting. Tomorrow is the day. I'm scheduled to arrive at the hospital at 5:30 AM. I'm so afraid, anxious excited and happy at the same time. I am just flooded with emotions. I've said it 59 times on this blog but I'm doing this mainly for my daughter. She deserves so much more than I can give right now. She has brought so much joy to my husband and I. I want to give her the best life. On to a new subject. I was on my lunch break. Since I can't eat I just drove around. I saw every restaurant you can imagine. I decided to stop at the library. When I left the library there was someone sitting outside eating chips and drinking soda.This set off another set of emotions. I just know that after tomorrow my relationship with food will forever be different. I know this is a good thing but it is still hard. No one around me understands how I feel. I have literally cried thinking about it. I'm trying to think of these things to keep from backing out: After tomorrow, I can be the mother I so badly want to be. I can be the wife my husband deserves. I will no longer have to scan the room to see if I'm the heaviest in the room. I will no longer have to stay home because I'm embarrassed of my weight. I will soon be able to run as I've dreamed of. I will no longer be ashamed of eating in a restaurant. I will no longer have this pain in my knees. I will be able to take my daughter to Disney World and not have to worry about not fitting on things and being unable to walk around. The person on the outside will match the person on the inside. Let's just hope these thoughts make it until tomorrow.

One day left. I have to be at the hospital at 5:30 AM tomorrow.

I honestly felt like I was alone. I didn't think anyone would understand why I felt like I was in mourning. I didn't think my husband would understand. He is very supportive of me having the surgery but I don't think he truly understands my struggle. Im going to take your advice and drag him to the monthly support group. [/img]

I'm trying my best to just think of my daughter. She has truly been a blessing to our lives. I just think she deserves this. I'm still afraid but I'm going through with this. I'm just praying for the best.