Pink1022

Hi, Last month my PCP recommended that I contact the bariatric center. I am 5'4 and have a bmi of 50 which is about 290 lbs. I have sleep apnea and high blood pressure. Two years ago I never thought I would be in this place. I was always obese but had lost 70 lbs the all natural way. I weighed less than I even weighed in high school. I did all this while suffering from hypothyroidism. Unfortunately, my husband and I decided to try and get pregnant. We really wanted a baby...because I never had one and I always wanted to be a mom. I was being treated for hyperplasia with an IUD at the time. I lost the IUD...and we attempted to get preggers...within 3 months I was hospitalized 2 times and had to have blood transfusions because of my periods. We then found out I had pcos and precancerous hyperplasia. Physically, I was done.. I could not do it anymore...and my husband could not stand watching me suffer anymore. So we decided to have a total hysterectomy. Shortly after I had a nervous breakdown...and severe depression from not being able to have a baby. That is where the current problem starts. While I had a very bad relationship with food my entire life...I never gained weight like I did until after having the hysterectomy. 200 turned into 250 and 250 turned into the heaviest weight of my life. I was under my PCP watch for well over a year trying metformin and everything under the sun...and still I would gain. I can't get it under control...and the weight I do manage to lose comes back with vengeance. So finally my PCP had enough and said its time to call bariatrics. I trust my doctor...and I trust my hospital, the Cleveland Clinic, so I gave in and attended a seminar. After researching, and deciding that wls was a good option...I applied and got accepted into the program. I am scheduled to see the shrink in two weeks, and start the pre op process. Since then I I have told just my immediate family...mom, dad, sister, brother, one cousin, and a good friend about my decision. One has been supportive the rest are scaring me to death. Talking about complications..and people that their friends know dying from the operation. I know the risks, but now I am terrified I am making the wrong decision. Help! Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

I know...if I don't get a handle on this weight, I will end up having diabetes and everything else that goes with it. I know its a lifestyle change...so much so that I already quit smoking...which is extremely difficult in itself. I am willing to make changes. I need to make them. I want to feel healthy, confident, and attractive. I am only 35. I don't want to wait till I'm 50..only to find out that I should have done the operation much sooner. My sister says I'm not that big..yes I do carry my weight well...but I am fat. I need to change. Keep in mind my sister has never been a pound overweight in her life. She doesn't understand the daily struggle of obesity and the social stigmas that go with them. My friend is overweight...has diabetes and has to take insulin shots. Her step mom had the surgery, and she has gained back weight...not all of it mind you. She also said her husbands aunt died from the operation. I get the risks...but she is trying to talk me out of my decision. Its scary...I made up my mind to do this. I even talked to my stepson about the operation all ready. Everyone around me is doubting my decision. My hubby only worries because of the risks. But the rest think this is drastic...the risks, giving up food, altering my body. They picture my 600lb life when they think of people getting this operation. Granted I'm not anywhere near the 600lbs...but I don't want to wait until I have all those health issues on top of the issues I already have to make a change. However it is so hard to listen to people and the horror stories. It causes doubt. But I know I have to do this. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

Thank you guys for your responses. I feel a bit better about it already. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App