Hang in there Pumpkin and know that you aren't alone. While reading your post I feel.. "oh, me too". I was sleeved 2/4. I have an 8 mth old, a 6 yr old and a 14 yr old, all that are more than ready for me to be better. I, like you only saw the good comments about the sleeve and I could swear I never say a negative issue until AFTER my surgery in which now is all I see it seem. That goes to show we only see what we want to see. I blame myself for needing such a surgery to correct the damage I did to myself unnessasarrily. Its frustrating for me because I can't walk upright w/o holding on to my tummy b/c of the pain and I sem to easily take in 1000 calories a day when others are only able to do about 500 or so, I'm like... did I pay for this crap for nothing? I'm paying financially, emotionally and physically! And that makes me a little angry.
Tonight was our family movie night. We ordered pizza. I felt so left out for some reason. Mad at myself because I feel if I had an ounce of self control, I could have just excercised portion control instead of such a permenant surgery... I could've just had my dang jaws wired shut. lol....
I do think however, we are way too early out to be making any kind of conclusions about our decision. Good, bad or otherwise. I think it will take some time for us to catch up to our new tummies MENTALLY and PHYSICALLY. I am also hopeful also that soon, we will heal and love our sleeve. I have a mental picture of us nibbling on dinner and being satisfied with small portions and living the sweet life of little skinny bi*ches lololol:)))
Please reach out to me anytime you need to. Email me and I'll give you my number if you need to talk or vent.But Please know you are not alone at all. Hang close to this board, as it's the greatest source of information and follow Tiffys inspiration and advice.
Hugs and support,
Kimberly