Allison

I'm SO sorry to hear that...it just amazes me when you can have such a special relationship with a guy, and they'd trade all that for a better body.

I should specify, it's my best girlfriend who knows about the band...the guy knows I'm having an operation (I had to explain why I wasn't going to be at work, and why I'm suddenly broke) but I explained that I have cysts on my ovaries (which I do) and let him assume that's what the surgery is for.

I'm just hoping that in the time it takes me to lose some weight and feel better about myself, he'll be figuring out that she's not smart or classy. I know that someday I'll figure out whether or not I'm actually supposed to be with this guy, but I just want to know that I have a fair chance.

I'm always here if you need to talk, too! We definitely have a lot in common and it helps to know I'm not going through any of this alone!