Allison

I totally understand not telling people...my mom, grandmother, aunt, and best friend are the only ones who know about the surgery. My father doesn't even know! He would only be mad about me spending the money, and think that I was being lazy and taking the "easy way out." Everyone who does know has been really supportive...they understand that I just want to begin a healthy and happy life, and that I can't do it on my own.

The last few days have been extremely hard for me...I just found out that this guy (my best friend) I've been falling for is dating someone. The thing that's killing me is that I know the girl, and she ISN'T very pretty, REALLY isn't smart, and is SO trashy...but she's got a nice body. It just hurts me that he and I have so much more in common, and have so much more fun together, but she's more attractive to him. I'm obviously doing this surgery for me, and not some guy, but I'm looking forward to the day when I'll have that great body, and the confidence that comes with it, so that I can at least take the chance and tell him how I feel...until then, it's just driving me crazy waiting for this new life to start!