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So I'm spending time with my mom's side of the family from the 5th-25th and so far it's been hell. I've been depressed since I got here and being around them is no fun because all they do is eat and I cannot eat like they do. I just can't feel the joy they get out of eating and being around each other. I feel alone, stressed and really sad. I can't go home until the 25th and I don't know what I'm going to do on Thanksgiving. I don't crave any of the foods like stuffing, turkey, etc and they're all going to be eating and be happy. I just don't get any joy out of eating anymore. I don't know what to do. I'm at the point where I'm crying so much in the bathroom that my face hurts and I've even biten myself to make myself stop crying. I haven't self harmed since 2013. I am taking my meds for bipolar disorder but it's just not working. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

That makes sense, too much fluid too fast because I swallow it fast because I hate the taste. I think I'll talk to my fiancé and tell him that it makes me sick and see if we can try something else. Thank you. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

Hi everyone, it's me Meridian. My user name was "venomfleurs" or something like that but I could not remember my email or password. Anyway, I just wanted to give everyone a small update and ask a question. Firstly, I've lost a total of 65 pounds so far and even though my doctor said that's not good for the first year, I think it's pretty darn awesome. Second, I got all my medical issues figured out (ie the feeling weak when standing and feeling pressure in my head). I'm anemic and they have me on extra Iron. Third, I got engaged! To a wonderful man and things have been amazing. My question is this and it's a bit personal but sex after weight loss surgery: I notice after oral sex my stomach hurts a lot. Is it normal for my stomach to hurt after swallowing sperm? After I do (and place let's all be adults here since we already are) my stomach hurts and I have runny bowls. I don't do it often so does this happen to anyone else? Did sex improve for you after weight loss surgery? Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

I feel like the surgery took the joy out of eating but I'm glad I got it. My family can't seem to understand that I cannot eat like I used to. They still slab big portions on my plate and then get mad when I eat less than half of it. I try to explain to them that I cannot eat that much and some foods I can't eat at all like pork. It's like they don't want to understand. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App

Thank you. I have a new therapist but she's not very good, she just let's me talk and talk and doesn't say a word. I am going to change therapist when I get back. Sent from my SM-G360T1 using the BariatricPal App