skinnymini

Sorry It's taken me so long to post anything. I haven't been back on here because I've been ashamed. I've gained all my weight back plus 11 lbs. Granted I haven't had a fill since before I got pregnant. The baby is wonderful he is 9 months now. But I'm so angry with myself and I still owe my dr. $100 from the surgery. So I can't get a fill until I've paid him. I've been having a lot of financial difficulty, my husband and I just purchased our first house and then he lost his job, of course he brought in the most $. So it's reaking havoc with my psyche. I feel so fat it's ridiculous. and I kinda resent my husband for it, because I wanted to wait atleast a year after the surgery to get pregnant, but he was very adamant on wanting another child and I did promise him we'd have another after my first one turned 3. So he was riding my case. Apart of me feels he wanted me to gain weight back. He never wanted me to have the surgery in the first place. And my relationship is just starting to heal. I've been through a lot did something that could have costed my marriage but thankfully did not. I dont' know. I'm sorry I know you didn't ask for all this personal information but... I feel compelled to tell someone the truth and stop acting like everything is ok. I'm blessed to still be here and it's 2008, but I NEVER imagined I'd be this big. :think :help:Skinnymini

It's finally done. I have 2.5 cc's in a 10 cc band with .5 cc's to be added as early as next week if I have no restriction, and 2 months if I do have restriction. Looking forward to posting new weight loss. I'm so happy!!! I ate about a quarter of a cup of broccoli and cheese Soup and after that drank some chicken broth. Had a little ice cream for dessert. :spider: But nothing remotely close to what I had been eating before the fill. I'm glad and God is definately still on the throne.:hail: Thanks everyone for bearing with me through my rant!:eek: I'll try to update as early as next week. For a new scale change hopefully.:clap2: However Aunt Flo is threating Water weight Until then Bandsters!!! Adios and happy eating!!!:whoo:

Good Morning Everyone! Here it is a week later and I'm feeling a lot better about things. I'm going to get my fill today and this year is going to be a new year for me. A hell of a year for me!!! My mom is getting married in June and I plan to be atleast 2 dress sizes smaller by then. I think that's a feasible goal. Thank you to everyone who had kind words for me and all those who read and felt my pain. Skinny:whoo:

you go up to the top of the screen and click on user cp, on the left side of the screen you'll see a header called private messages about halfway down and under that it'll say send a message. that's how you can do that.

Thanks Sonia, I really appreciate it, Could we possibly talk through Private Message or IM my screen name is thicknsexy0203. I've had it since college.

Hey guys... before I got pregnant, which I'm on week 21, feeling ok for the most part, I was down to 293 from a starting weight of 317 so that's 24 lbs. I'm holding steady at 301 now. which is cool because my first weigh-in at the doc's office for my prenatal was 306. I have a pic of myself but I havent developed them yet. I'll take more around the holidays and make sure I post for all to see. Miss you all, especially you Teresita. Congrats to everyone for all the weight lost and keep on keeping on. I can't wait until I can start again and get a fill. :preggers: Marcelle :preggers:

Hey you guys. Sorry I haven't been keeping up with these posts. I'm down 24 lbs in 6 months but my weightloss will have to stop. I just found out that I'm pregnant

same here. I'm so sorry I have selective memory so if you told me and I forgot my apologies. Happy Belated Bday!!!!!:happybday2: :happybday: :happybday2: :happybday: :happybday2: :happybday:

i'm not liable for what I might eat tomorrow. but I've been pretty good this weekend. Except for the minor usual slips. I know it shouldnt' be usual. or even have happened in the first place but you know that ice cream calls me. I had less than a half cup though. So i'm getting better. Just enough to taste you know? I get full quick these days so I do have that working to my advantage. When's the next meeting and where guys?

Ok. let's regroup since I had lunch. I had chick fil-a for breakfast and lunch I had shrimp and artichoke dip from macaroni grill. Dinner is still a:confused:

B:chick fil-a buscuit with chicken w/ strawberry jam, and some taters. L: dunno yet. D: definately don't know.

I'm back everyone and recommitting myself to the band. Yes I have been a very bad girl. But I'm ready to stop being one. I need exercise partners, anyone in the Baltimore Area, west baltimore or just would be willing to meet up with a sista to get your walk on or otherwise, let me know my email is marcellebass-wilson@hotmail.com. Maybe we can even start up our own area meetings. My house is a mess and unfortunately will always be that way but I am willing to meet at a library or something. Let me know. Hit me up. Teresita...you are one special lady. Thanks for checking up on me. StockyMd I just saw your pic. Too beautiful for words. Hopefully I'll get a nice amount of responses from this, if not I'll try it again. Thanks everyone!!!

I do work in Columbia Stocky so that may be a plan if I don't have to pick up the little one. Where exactly is it and how much to attend? That sounds like fun:D

Today Folks I am having :girl_hug: Breakfast: Fruit and Walnut Salad From McDonalds Fruit And Yogurt Parfait from Mcdonalds Lunch. Probably 1/2 ceasar salad and 1/2 sandwich from Panera Bread. Dinner. It may be rib eye steak baked in the oven with a baked potato (small) and spinach Be proud of me folks. I am now remotivated to me!!!:clap2: Now....Puddin (please see below) Well I also pay for a gym membership. However I "waste" my money. And it's not within walking distance and it's an all women's gym. they close at 8 on the weekdays 6 on fridays and 12 on saturdays. Sunday's they're closed. I have a 3 year membership and this is my second year. SO....I need to get my butt back. I used to have an excuse. My old position had me working until 6:30 4 days out of the week, I still had to pick up my son from daycare and fix dinner and make sure he had his bath. But now... I only work until 5 and I don't always pick my son up. So I can go. I just have to find my gym clothes. Next year after my membership is up, I'll just do classes at the local community college. That should be fun. I'll look up that website for those shakes.

it sounds exciting. I'd love to get one of those gadgets but I truely can't afford one. Hopefully one day soon in the future they'll come out with a moderately priced one. You're truely an inspiration I was only about 11 lbs heavier than you when i started and look at you. already down in the low 200's. What kept your motivation to exercise? When did you discover it? Or did you always have it? Do you have a workout buddy? And where do you find those shakes you're talking about?

That would be most awesome. I'll let you know when I'm available.

where are these classes being held?

depending on hubby's schedule sometimes it's all day and sometimes without. right now without for about this weekend and next but next weekend is the gymboree thing. After that it's up in the air because he's on a rotating schedule that is so volitile it never stays the same. why do you ask?

sorry puddin pie. I just did it again today. that was before I read your post. I always feel like I'm so full and comfortable when I eat it that I dont eat much for lunch. it's a bad habit I just brought back and now need to shake. But I should buy some more slim fast shakes you're right. and it is 440 in a bacon, egg and cheese biscuit. the sausage added is an extra 170 and the hash brown is 140, I'm getting all of this of course off of sparkpeople.com. I'm a bad girl I know. now if i could only exercise the crap off. I'm just bad all around. Thanks for the scolding though. Now that I know and can see how many calories I'm putting into breakfast, not to mention carbs. I'm sure I'll do better. I hate oatmeal though so don't suggest that. I've tried it about 6 times since I've been banded. it sucks. Grits I love though. and granola cereal, but my nutritionist said that shredded wheat is my best bet. 1/2 cup frosted (since I like these the best for the sugar) and 1/2 cup regular. I just have to go buy some more. It's hard being on an almost non existant pay check trying to budget and buy high quality foods. jeez. anyway enough ranting for today for lunch it's 5 oz of pork (from last nights dinner) and about a half cup of peas.

sadly no. Before I started working this position, my old one had me working until 6:30 4 days a week. so when I got home after picking up my son from daycare it was 7:30, I still had to cook and make sure he got bathed and put into bed so I didn't walk the puppy, I did buy a retractable leash so that I could walk him. Now there's nothing to it but to do it.

usually all day. I'm trying to get my son into Gymboree though so it may not be that much availability soon, unless my hubby is home. but as of right now all day.

Breakfast: bacon egg and cheese biscut w/ sausage from mcdonalds hash brown, and large oj Lunch: 5 chicken wings (party size) 3/4 piece of lake trout 1/4 cup of collard greens 1/8 cup of mac & cheese Dinner: TBA probably porkchop and some type of veggie. Let the scolding begin!!!

hey... sorry I've been out of commission. Doing my own thing. Losing and gaining. I need another fill but have to pay for the first one before I get another. Times are hard. I've been doing pretty good with the carbs, I've been teetering around the 300 mark, often making it below 300 but only during that time of the month. I need to exercise. I haven't been and I'll admit that's horrible. It's worse when you have no one to exercise with you. So I'll be posting a thread asking any newly banded members or old ones care to walk in the baltimore area. and my email. We can figure out days and times and all that. Exchange recipies. I got another car so maybe I can come to the meetings now. Anyway cheers to everyone meeting their goals. My first one was getting below 300. Now it's to stay below 300. But thanks for inquiring about me. It's nice to be missed, even when you are being bad.

This is totally my fault. I haven't been on this board in like forever, I'm eating all the wrong things, I'm not exercising, my financial life is a burden, my job sucks, however i just got a new position in a different office with more $ so maybe that will help. And since i'm just now admitting that I'm an emotional eater, I have been out of control since I don't know how long. I just got a dog to walk so that way someone will walk with me, however, the darn thing is too afraid to go out of the yard. (He's 3 months and I just got him last week) So... i try to play with him in the yard some, but he runs in crap and I don't want to get it on my shoes. I know these are excuses, but I really need some motivation, sometimes I feel like maybe I should have done RNY, just because it's more drastic and I have to eat right. But I'm terrified to death of that death rate. I've only had 1 fill of 3 cc's so far, I know I probably need another one. I owe everybody something and it seems to be no sun behind all of these clouds in my life. I just had a cheesesteak sub for lunch and a very big breakfast, 2 eggs, cheese, toast, and scrapple, and a hash brown. I know carbs carbs carbs. I'm a carbavoire. I can't seem to stop eating them. I need help seriously. I feel as if maybe i need to see a shrink, I have been maintaining my weight, or atleast i think I have I forgot to weigh in this morning. I just feel pathetic, anyone have any tips for getting motivated or exercising in the home without "exercising" if you catch my drift. ( no getting suited up, turning on the vcr and getting sweat rolling, there's not enough room in my room for that. and that's the only place I have now to exercise. other than that gym I joined that takes $32 out of my bank account every month. My job has me working until 6:30 everyday and the gym closes at 8. I could go on my day off, but i always feel like why work on my day off? I know I'm just a lazy fat loser, that's why I got this surgery, so it could help me to become healthier, and at first I was so motivated to start exercising, and then i couldn't for 6-8 weeks, I need a workout partner, someone to whip my ass in shape. that's what I need. I'm going to see my nutritionist next wed so she can fuss at me. I just feel horrible. That's all i had to say. Respond if you must. BTW: I am so happy for you guys that have the motivation to make the band work for you. :clap2: Keep on keeping on. and just pray for me. Marcelle

Ok. Well. I walked this weekend, and I did well eating, I made it to my first goal ever and that was to be under 300lbs. I am officially 299.4 with my clothes on and I'm on my period!!! Normally I would weigh myself with my clothes off but I forgot. I've gone from 303 2 weeks ago to 300 on saturday (clothes on again, I know, I know.) and on sunday 302.4 clothes off (first day of my period) and today it was 299.4 with my clothes on. I'm psyched. I got that new job I was talking about and I've come up with a plan to save and pay bills and have fun money all at the same time. Life is good. Thank you for continuing to check up on me. Maybe when I get another car (which will have to be soon unfortunately) I can make it out to one of your monthly meetings. I'm so happy now. I could just scream. approx 16 days to go before I'm out of this crappy office. But thank you. And continue to check up on me because I need that special love. Marcelle