I had the gastric bypass RNY (or is the r&y??) on October 5th. I unfortunately had a rare complication of internal bleeding, my incisions ripped. On top of that I have a blood disorder, factor5, which causes blood clots- had several on/around the area. The surgeon actually told my parents I had a high chance of dying. Luckily, I am still here. Had to spend multiple days in the ICU and then multiple days in the regular IP hospital.
I had some delays with my progress. I started at 257. 3 months out I am 205. My doctor tells me I'm where in supposed to be. I just don't feel I am. Does anyone else have this issue? It's as if no matter what you feel it's not enough? I barely eat as is but when I do I feel like a complete pig, when in reality I'm not eating enough.. My fear right now is my mindset has turned harsh, i don't want to adopt bad eating habits or a eating disorder. Has anyone struggled with this?
I also want to add my entire immediate family had had the surgery besides my youngest brother. I tend to compare myself to them. Ironically, I tried to help my mom not to compare herself to them as we are all different....
I just really want to know if I'm alone on this battle or is there someone somewhere struggling too....
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