Goddess of Meta

well my way of thinking is kinda hard to explain.... but i just want it to get me down to my target weight.... if i can.... but honestly, i know if i got back down, i can keep it there, because my husband is very persuasive(sp?) and plus he told me he'd never let me get to be this big again.... i just want to get it off. i mean not everyone thinks like me and everything..... but like i said, tha'ts my opinion... if anything i'm sure if i bribed my husband, he'd help me get to the weight.... i gained about 20-30 pounds in the past 11 months.... because it's a comfort thing when my husband isn't home, and things will be a lot easier when he is home.... but lately i've only eatten like once a day.... but i'm ready to change my diet and everything.... it's just this damn deployment and the stress of getting my Party Lite parties done, and going to be moving and everything. it's hard on me because i'll be leaving my life behind and everything.... ugh but usually when my husband is home, i eat a lot better because he eats like salads and everything. hell i'll just be happy when he's home, i'll have a work-out partner again, and be able to eat the right things.... idk what to really do anymore..... i think the only reason i want to get the lap band maybe is because i want a quick easy fix.... idk anymore.... we'll see i guess....

My name is Whitney, I'm almost 23 years old. I'm married to an active duty soldier who's currently deployed, his name is Matt and he's 24 years old. I'm really considering the Lap Band, because I'm tired of being so short AND being so over weight. I've tried everything, diets and weightloss pills and excerise. I don't really want to rely on surgery, but since I've been this way for so long, i don't want to rely on the lap band for the rest of my life, i want to get to my target weight then get rid of it because like i said i dont want to depend on it.