Miss Impala

Giggling..... one of the reasons I started telling also. I didn't want people thinking I was a meth or drug addict. ???? Sent from my SM-N900T using the BariatricPal App

Word. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App Good for you! I was simply answering the question about my own feelings. I vascillate back and forth still. But I am also thankful for not only the mentoring I received from other female truckers, but from other successful and failed WLS survivors. Not sharing doesn't mean I think you're ashamed... I was just sharing what I had to work thru in response to the topic question. Sent from my SM-N900T using the BariatricPal App

Good for you! I was simply answering the question about my own feelings. I vascillate back and forth still. But I am also thankful for not only the mentoring I received from other female truckers, but from other successful and failed WLS survivors. Not sharing doesn't mean I think you're ashamed... I was just sharing what I had to work thru in response to the topic question. Sent from my SM-N900T using the BariatricPal App

At first, i thought the same thing, I didn't want anyone to know. I felt so ashamed that I couldn't do this on my own. But eventually I worked thru it. I am quite surprised at how many are not saying anything? I can understand, but for me I have lived my entire life with shame and failure of diets and at first this was no different. My negative self talk included "i can't believe I couldnt do this on my own!" But I finally processed it and am now at a point as a food addict, that I refuse to allow food rule my life anymore. I refuse to allow myself to feel ashamed because I am doing something that has a prognosis of making my life better. Before becoming a truck driver and currently a Dispatcher, I came from the Medical field. Which has a different outlook on health, medication and surgeries. So that could be the reason I see this as an an opportunity to teach others how to stop themselves before they end up as a class 3 to 4 obese aka super obese person. I want to rub it into my employers face, whom I love and respect, but who specifically excludes weight loss surgery, but feel I need to make a point, that they will pay for rehab for a person who is a drug or alcohol addict, but not for a person who has dealt with an addiction to food even though they will pay for back surgery, the surgeries related to diabetes, the care and treatment for diabetic ulcers, kidney dialysis etc. I will not be ashamed to take advantage of something that has a more proven track record than medication. I didn't have much, but I had just enough in my retirement accounts to self pay for this DS surgery. But I looked at it this way, better to perform this act of self care with it, than to die before I can actually retire. I can't do it on my own. I have to have help. And that is ok. Because at some point in our life we will have to admit we need help, and at 44, I finally admitted it to myself. And I will gladly admit that to whoever is curious enough to ask. Sent from my SM-N930T using the BariatricPal App