daisychain40

Hi all, I'm a 40 year old women who has suffered from eating disorders my whole life I have been every weight from 8 stone to 22stone. Which is my current weight. I managed to lose 9 stone ten years ago and kept it of for 7 years with exercise and healthy eating. I'm an emotional eater and From an early age suffered abuse and rejection and its continued throughout life. My self esteem has never really been high but is currently at an all time low. I have shut myself off from my family and friends and other than work stay home eating alone. I slowly put back on all weight I lose over last three years as I was in abusive relationship that's now over. Everyone say I did it before I can do it again. But I just don't feel strong enough anymore I'm worn out from all the eating and gaining and losing of weight and the focus on food. I just want to be at peace with the whole food thing and not have that be my focus anymore. I was put forward for bariatric surgery on Nhs one year ago and I had to go to sessions throughout this year. My final appointment is now due in three weeks and and I will find out if I have been approved or not. I'm really scared I never have had much luck I can't go on way I am I find it hard to walk or do much these days everything hurts. But I think what if I have surgery and I die or I'm really ill for the rest of my life. I really just want to know what it's like in reality living after bypass surgery. Is it worth it ? Do any of you regret it ? Is it painful ? Anything you can tell me to give me would be much appreciated. I truly believe i could spend another 3 years trying to lose weight as I did before but I will always return to the food as it's been my life. Is this the right road I'm going down based on what I've said any opinions would be welcome Most of my friends and family think I'm making a mistake I feel very alone right now I was lastly like to say I admire anyone that has the strength to try to change there life well done to all of you. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Thank you rny 100516 that's really helpful Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Thank you lainy why did it now work for you ? and James I'll have a read of your link that's really helpful much appreciated Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App