Leslie - I'm so sorry to hear about your issues at home. I agree with everyone else that I can not tell you what to do. Of course my first reaction was to tell you to "kick his ass to the curb", but of course that is not good advice. You have children to think about first of all and besides he has to have some good qualities because you wouldn't have married him if he didn't. I will pray that you are able to take care of yourself the way you need to and of course those little girls. You really do have to think of yourself first in this situation because if you don't take care of your girls' mother, you can't take care of them. I will say, and I hope you don't mind, but your DH is a huge ass!! However, we all make mistakes and even though his one that you might not ever get over, you have to do what is right for you. I can't tell you I know how you feel, because I don't. I can only imagine. I've always said adultry was a "deal breaker", but now that I have kids I don't know. The good news is that the situation is in your hands, IMHO. When he cheated, he gave up his right to any control over how you feel or how long you need to grieve and get over it or deal with it, if you ever can- again, just my opinion. If he loves you and wants to make it right, he'll understand that and let you run the show. I also agree that you should probably talk to someone just to help you sort out how you really feel about the whole situation - what he did, reconciliation and what that means, etc. My heart goes out to you. My advice to you now - Reclaim your power and use it! And I'm not talking about your DH, I'm talking about you doing what you need to do to not only feel better about yourself, but to get back on track. We all hit walls, but we have to pull ourselves back out again. You can do it!! I know you can! You are a beautiful, smart, sassy woman who knows what she needs to do. Go ahead and do it, others be damned!! Good luck to you and please don't leave this site. I agree that it is a great place to feel a connection and a sense of belonging since everyone knows what you are going through with respect to your band. Have a great day!!
P.S. I'm on the 5 day pouch test, starting today. I've been catching myself eating not only crap, but stress eating again. I feel out of control at the moment, so that is my first step in getting it back and then we'll see if I need a fill.