I am so sorry your loss of your furbaby. May this bring you some comfort: www.rainbowbridge.com.
I have been through it many times (dogs and cats) this year I was able to give my cat Gems the gift of peace from cancer. Thankfully she was only sick 2 weeks and from diagnosis to peace 24 hours. Rainbow bridge always helps me.
As for comforting yourself without food, I highly recommend a guided meditation CD, a warm relaxing shower or bath and warm fuzzy pjs! The cleansing Water with the warm fuzzy pjs is like a big ???? hug.
The best medicine is rescuing another furbaby.
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Surgery: 9-13-16