MicheleK

Yeah Fluffy is not me...rabbits are fluffy, puppies are fluffy... Let's keep it real...I'm FAT. Words that hide the true meaning annoy me. I mean, I know I'm fat...I don't need a "cute" word to hide the fact everyone else does too. LOL

My poor DH doesn't even look at anyone (at least where I can see him). When we met my weight was WAAAAAY lower (by more then 100lbs) and I think he took some "peeks" more then. Of course, he realizes my horrible insecurities at the moment so I think he's trying to take my feelings into consideration. It's funny because even with my insecurities, I'm not a jealous person. If he wants to look that's okay with me. Hell, I look at hot men and women...it's human nature. I'm sure it was harmless....in fact, it's pretty normal.

Thanks for responding. I really like the girls in the officer too! They seem so nice. I'm nervous...and I can't wait for my surgery to be approved!!!

Wasa - I was actually responding to another response where I brought up your chicken thread....I called it "funny" and a few people (at least this is how I read it) thought I thought eating disorders were funny. Which I don't...obviously. I hope I didn't offend anyone I just wanted to make myself clear.

Insecurity + binge eating = fighting non-stop with DH I'm SO tired of this crap!! Anyone else lashing out at their hubby like I am?? Poor guy I'm surprised he comes home from work.... *sigh* At least I finally had my last appointment with my nutritionist. I'm hoping that approval will be coming soon. I have to do something before I go insane...lol.

I agree with you Leslie. Negativity is sooooo toxic.

Several years ago, I lost over 100lbs (low cal, starvation!) one of my best friends was FREAKING OUT when she started noticing my weightloss. She thought I was ill....I weighed 200lbs and she thought I was dying.... I asked her wtf her problem was and she told me she kept comparing my current body in her mind with my old one. Every time she saw me she expected to see the "old" me and when she didn't she was shocked all over again. I don't think that's normally the case as most people are jealous assholes, lol.

This is so well said....I agree 15000% (I live in Oklahoma...we have our share of Christian-faithed businesses, lol) I find people that need to wear their faith "on their sleeve" by advertising it every chance they get to be the most insincere.

I like these threads, they let me vent a little: 1. Not fitting into booths 2. Not fitting into seats at the movies 3. Being scared I'll run into someone I know when I go out somewhere 4. Not wanting to leave the house 5. Shopping at Layne Bryant and discovering their largest shirts STILL don't fit 6. Looking around every time I enter a room to see if I'm the fattest one there 7. Having people make comments about my weight...that are really nasty but they hide it behind "I'm trying to help you" 8. Being paranoid that everyone is judging me due to my weight 9. Cutting off friendships because I'm ashamed of the weight I've gained 10. That place UNDER your belly... 11. Dreading shaving my own legs 12. People thinking I'm older then I am 13. Not believing my husband when he tells me I'm beautiful

I just popped in to complain.... I just started last night and this morning the cramping is making me want to puke....this one feels like it's going to be a real doozy. UGH! :grouphug::cursing::cursing::biggrin::cursing:

Me too!! :grouphug:

I didn't post on the "5 chicken" thread either, I didn't even read much past the first couple of posts. What I meant was I realized the thread was posted tongue and cheek and meant to be funny (in a sarcastic way). I don't find eating disorders amusing, as I've had one my entire life and it's pretty much controlled me for 15+ years.

I've been assigned a CPAP machine to use for a week to get used to it. I can't freakin stand it!!! OMG It's the kind that covers the nose and mouth, and it's VERY annoying. I tried the nose pillows while I was at my first sleep study, and my mouth always drops open during sleep so I'd wake up like I was choking. Plus, they gave me a "loaner" that is for smokers (yes, I smoke...I know the picture of good health, right?)...it smells like SHIT. I don't know what to do, I know I need to use this thing...apparently my sleep apnea is pretty darn severe. (288 events per hour, but my oxygen levels never drop below normal...go figure). I have an appointment to take back the loaner tomorrow, I think I'm going to ask to try the nose pillows again, this mask is just to freakin weird.

I want people to post about bad experiences...I want to keep tabs on all the facts. If I don't know what to look for (symptoms wise) I might shrug something off that could be really serious. That being said, people that abuse their band and then bitch and moan about it not working bother me. Similar to a funny thread I saw the other day "I ate 5 chickens, do you think my band will be okay?" Kind of the same thing. I see posts a lot about people eating normal portions (or implying it anyway) and puking all the time...then wondering why their band slipped....duh! It has been my experience in life, you get what you put in. Perhaps those numbers for slippage patients are 7%, but how many are random slips, and how many are slips from people abusing their band? I have a friend that has the band and has since 2003. She has gained 40lbs (after losing 120) and she barfs after every meal...because she still eats like a 350lb woman. She has horrible reflux and constant stomach issues. She's 52 years old...and still won't follow correct procedure (even though she's been warned over and over). She drinks milkshakes ALL DAY, buys Starbucks bottled drinks by the CASE and eats sugar filled, fatty foods. If her band slips I will not be shocked...at all. I'm terrified of having an object placed in my body, I'm also terrified of surgery....but, you know what I'm even more scared of??? Living (and dying) with this weight.

There is a sticky in one of the forums about surgery day stories. It's VERY informative...I would suggest reading it. I don't have my date yet, but I've read that thread about a million times to keep my mind at ease. Someone also put together a shopping list of things to get prior to surgery, I believe it's under FAQ. Check those threads out, they will help you a lot. Grats on your surgery date!!!! :ohmy:

Kris, Welcome to the site. I'm sure you will find lots of wonderful information regarding Lap Band surgery. I hope everything works out well for your daughter. Did her doctor recommend the surgery? 15 is SO young, and there are SO many lifestyle changes that have to take place...it's going to be a tough road and I'm sure she will need all the support from you she can get. I believe in the US docs won't preform Lap Band until the patient is 18, but I'm not sure about other countries so I don't have much to offer in the way of advice. I hope you're able to find out the information you need. Good luck!

Amanda - Thank you for the reply. I think you're making a wonderful choice to improve your life. I hope we both get great news soon. I'm willing to bet if you get banded you'll be able to have your replacement surgery in NO time. Keep us posted on how you're doing. Michele

WOOHOO!! Grats on your amazing accomplishment! :ohmy::thumbup:

Jack - You're a very smart man. This comment should be stickied and forced to be read by anyone even starting ANY kind of WL journey. BTW jfran, you're a beautiful girl, enjoy life and work on finding YOU. The right guy is out there...I didn't find my right guy until age 30. The bad news is I spent most of my 20's married to the "wrong" guy. So please, take your time and make sure you love yourself first, it will make a world of difference. Good luck :ohmy:

Your story is an inspiration! Congrats on your success! :ohmy:

WOW! You looking amazing!!

I just wanted to stop in and offer my support and prayers for a speedy recovery. I haven't been banded yet, but currently working on the process...I for one appreciate you folks posting about issues you're having so us "newbies" know what to look for. Best of luck to each of you.

I've been assigned a CPAP machine to use for a week to get used to it. I can't freakin stand it!!! OMG It's the kind that covers the nose and mouth, and it's VERY annoying. I tried the nose pillows while I was at my first sleep study, and my mouth always drops open during sleep so I'd wake up like I was choking. Plus, they gave me a "loaner" that is for smokers (yes, I smoke...I know the picture of good health, right?)...it smells like SHIT. I don't know what to do, I know I need to use this thing...apparently my sleep apnea is pretty darn severe. (288 events per hour, but my oxygen levels never drop below normal...go figure). I have an appointment to take back the loaner tomorrow, I think I'm going to ask to try the nose pillows again, this mask is just to freakin weird.

I haven't visited this thread in awhile, but WOW Tied you're an inspiration. Your weightloss is really impressive, grats! I have to admit I'm pretty scared about surgery because of my weight, (I've also, never had surgery - and I'm scared of needles, lol). My current BMI is 53.7. :ohmy: All in all I realize I have to take control of my life, so I'm overcoming my fears and moving forward. I have my final appointment with my surgeon on June 25th (after enduring a 3 month supervised diet plan - insurance required), after that my info will be faxed over to Aetna. I hope they move this along quickly, I'm turning 35 on the 27th and an insurance approval would be a wonderful B'Day gift.

I'm not banded yet, so the only thing I can kind of offer advice on is the sleep study. The reason my doctor ordered mine was because apparently obese people have lots of issues with sleep apnea (due to excess weight blocking air flow). A CPAP machine really does help with this and I hear when you have your surgery a lot of times they will have you bring your CPAP with you and use it while you're in recovery. This insures your oxygen absorption doesn't drop while you're still sleeping from the anesthesia. I'm glad I had mine done, I found out I have some pretty nasty sleep apnea, though it's believed by my PCP that it's related mostly to weight. I've read many stories on here about how people got taken off their CPAP after dropping weight with the band. I hope that helps, what portion of the journey are you on? Have you been to a seminar? (that helped me a lot with my decision)