Tanette, I completely understand where you are at right now. I had a month and a half before my first appointment, and I knew how determined I was to make the necessary changes for the rest of my life, so I gave myself permission to have the last supper one too many times. I gained 13 lbs. I have been on my preop plan for 6 weeks now, and just got rid of those 13 pounds - in effect I screwed myself out of 6 weeks preop.
I have been told by my doctor that now is the time to learn about how to live after the honeymoon. Once we are postop we will be overwhelmed with the physical realities, so we need to have this preop stuff down pat. It sounds like you have about 100 days until you could be having surgery. It takes about 100 days to make a major lifestyle change made up of small changes each day. Hope I am making sense - this is my first post on bariatricpal.