I'm 60 and just had gastric sleeve surgery 12 days ago and have never felt better!!! I've lived for so many years with severe obstructive sleep apnea, restless leg syndrome, high cholesterol, major knee problems, I was pre-diabetic, etc., that I kick myself for not doing this sooner. When I was depressed, I thought like you do, but now I WANT to live, not just exist, but really live!!! I'm following my doctor's orders and I'm on my way. Please don't give up, you're still young and can have a full and satisfying life ahead of you. I'm praying our Almighty Father will bless you with peace and motivation so you can LIVE again.