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I always hated califlower, but on the mushy stage I decided if I eat one more potatoe I would go crazy, so I made the califlower mash. I put cream cheese, salt, mozerella, and a little cream in it and mashed mashed mashed. It was actually really great. You can't taste vegtable you only tast the cheese with the texture of mashed potatoes.:biggrin:

My mom couldn't cook. She worked full time plus, had three kids in diffrent activities, (my younger brother and sister were twins), and she just didn't have a knack for it.So we ate McDonalds, frozen waffles, pizza...anything but vegtables. I don't think my body was getting the right amount of vitamans because I would be starving by seven, or mabye there is something wrong with my brain, either way I felt like if I didn't get something I would just die. My dad would hit me if I got a snack after supper so I learned to hide bread under my shirt when noone was looking and sneak into my room. I would get in my room and roll the bread into a ball so if anyone walked in I could hide it in my little fist and noone would see it. As I got older It would be more and more peices. Only at night, but night eating is bad for you no matter what age you are. I started to gain weight, not helping that I was held back in kindergarten and went through puberty in third grade so I was already developing curves and breast while all the rest of my class was still stick like. My dad was mentally abusive, sometimes physically, but not too often.(his dad was horrifically physically abusive) I never expressed what was going on at home to anyone at school and after kids started teasing me all the time for being "fat" and because I was kind of wierd (still am). I never expressed at home to anyone what was going on at school. I just ate. I developed a REAL bread addiction. If I don't have bread I felt like I had eaten nothing. I am an emotional eater. I have a genetic disposition on my mom's side to be bigger but unlike my mom's weight that goes flatteringly on her butt and breast, mine sticks to my belly and hips. I celebrate by eating, I eat to substitue for crying, and I eat to pass time. Now I try to drink water and go to the gym... I think this is going to be a long journey for me, but I truely am ready. If this fails I don't know what I am going to do with myself.

I am staying on plan today because I finally got a real life weight loss partner!:biggrin:

thanks so much. :biggrin2:

Penny- I am glad they were able to find the problem and it isn't a huge delimia to fix it. I'm sorry it happened, but I am glad you are taking steps to correct it.

Hello Puddin! I was banded on the 27th. Its so nice to meet you!

The only thing that helps me if I get heartburn is milk. I just sip on 1% milk when it gets rid bad. I don't do well with any kind of medicine though. I hope it gets better.

Great Attitude. I know you will do great! And congratulations 100 times for your insurance. I am so happy for you.

I have asked the people close to me not to buy sunbeam white bread. Its my kryponite.

I have this absolute conviction that my band is slipping. I don't have any real pain just a twinge of something I can't identify down there sometimes. I haven't had a fill yet, and I do have some restriction, but I feel like it has slipped. I think that it is just a fear I have because I am selfpay and if it slips I can't afford to fix it. I can't get it out of my head, "its slipping, it's slipping, It's not going to work, Everyone knows I have surgery, it's slipping"

sweet. I think I will check into that for my own peice of mind. I have a tendency to worry myself to death...which I used to deal with with food.

Hmmm...I just can't get the hang of the elliptical. Maybe its my feet. I have weird feet and toes that throws off my balance when I am walking and tiny short little legs. I don't know, I just don't like it.

Oh I hate the elliptical. It hurts my ankles and I always think I am going to fall off of it. I can't do it long enough to really get a work out. Maybe I am just too big.

I have no real symptoms. I just can't get it out of my head.

Heres my face.

I am wearing the same over shirt in both of these pics. I think I was about 320 in these pictures.

Meth is a life ruiner. It ruins your health, your teeth, your life. I would rather be fat. I hate drugs. I have lost so many people to them.

I am staying on plan today because easter weekend was a band disaster!

If you keep up with the pace you are going. In 5 more months you will lose another 35 lbs. At a "snails pace" You would have lost 70 lbs in 10 months. That is amazing! And with your band you will be able to keep the weight off much easier than without the surgery. You are doing great. Don't lose the faith in yourself. We are here for you.

You were talking about if guys hit on you after you lose weight--My girlfriend had gastric bypass almost 10 yrs ago and she said she actually had anger issues and had to see a therapist because of how diffrently she was treated after the surgery. All these people talked to her and hit on her that never even glanced at her before. Now I have special considerations when it is two woman togethor, I am especially looking forward to losing the weight for certain things to work a little better. I hope my sex drive is not affected.

Shreveport Louisiana.