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ohhh up and down, but overall pretty good.

Hasn't she lost weight since that show started?

Oregon your avator made me burst out laughing at work and get ugly looks from the drenched salesmen squishing around here on the salesfloor. Speaking of drenched, here we had seven freaking inches of rain in two hours causing me to be stranded at a park parking lot where I had to pull over for three freaking hours. Sooo. I went to bed past midnight last night and had to wake up at 5 to go to work, apparently it is going to rain all day today too. The roads are still flooded but thankfully I live two minutes from work. But there have been so many accidents and people are calling in. I am beginning to wonder if I came to work for nothing.

Don't be discouraged. The bumps along the way will make the end result that much sweeter.

It's funny I am just now learning to sleep with any kind of clothes on, but usually a tanktop and boxers are all I can do. I have no kids though. I need the closet door shut to sleep, oh and I live in Louisiana so the pillow gets flipped an average of 79 times a night, and I usually don't cover up so much as ball the blanket into a tangled mess to cover one let and to hold the rest of it in my arms all night. A habit that has irratated all my bed fellows ever. Oh and I am a freak about pillows I trade them out all the time because a lumpy pillow is, to me, the cardinal sin of the night.

Oh the talented half of the writers of Good will hunting. He also stars in several Kevin Smith films, he is the main character in all the bourne Identity movies, and he is the guy that was checking our cute OP out. He's decent. Oh he also plays in "the talented Mr. Ripley"

I am staying on plan today because I had cake yesterday, and cake is not on plan.

I don't think what you are going through is unusual. In fact my partner went through the exact same thing when she had gastric bypass 8 years ago. She became very angry and antisocial. All these people who never spoke to her or looked at her were treating her like "an actual person". It's societies problem with fat people and I am sure that is hard to deal with. I hope you can get through this...if it makes you feel better, she did. I would seek therapy if you can. I think everyone could use some therapy sometimes. Good luck with you, and congrats on all your accomplishments.

Though it is misguided, and mayb be subconsciously wanted her fat buddy to stay that way...she also truely might be fearful for you. When my old roommate talked about gastric bypass it terrified me. I just knew she would die if she had that surgery, that she could never follow the guidelines, it horrified me. I still feel that way. I still think that it was too extreme...but I've learned to keep my opinions about other peoples bodies to my freaking self. She never did the gastric bypass. She couldn't even follow the pre-op rules so now she is trying to get insurance to pay for a lapband. I just smile and nod and tell her good luck. The point is, your friend might think she is helping, but sometimes people have a lot of opinions on things they shouldn't...and should really keep their mouths shut. Good job on being able to keep your own shut, even if your friend cant.

Congrats to both our new onerderland guests. I hate you guys a little bit. :-) I'm just joshing with you. That is truely awesome news. Keep up the fantastic work. Tara

I know the grass is greener and what not... but seriously you should see the foot and a half God alloted me for legs. They look like large, white stuffed sausages kinda like a chubby babies. I know its like the girl with straight hair always wants curly and vice versa...but tall girls are hot!

I'm staying on plan today because the scale was two lbs down at the gym yesterday and it felt good.

I have been so positive. My doctor told me that I would go through some psychological issues. I believed him, I really did. I went through the liquid stage with minor annoyance for almost four weeks. I sailed through the mushies. I missed real food horribly but I was fine. I got my first fill on thursday and I have cried, no sobbed, everyday since. It's been dramatic. I didn't eat anything before the fill I was too nervous. I received my fill at 2, at 4 the next day when I got off work as soon as I got home I picked a huge fight with my partner. I never act like that. When she didn't rise to my bitching, nagging, and accusations I went through our apartment raging and even threw some nail clippers at the wall. I never act like this ever. Then I took a long bath and got out feeling contrite and refreshed. I apologized and then two seconds later started crying and crying. Last night I cried and cried until I thought I was going to lose my mind because my friends cancelled on plans we had for two weeks. These particular friends always cancel so it was nothing unusual about it. But it effected me terribly. Then my partner and I went to my bestfriends play which was hilarous and wonderful. I left happy and giddy and that is how I went to bed. I woke up this morning and cried about my grandmothers stroke, and my grandfathers cancer and when that passed, I went to watch some tv. One the news there was this adorable senior citizens singing group "young at heart" they sang current hits and other hits from the 60's. It was touching. Then this guy with cancer who had a beautiful deep strong voice sang this slow sad song with his oxegen on and I started sobbing again. I feel like I am going through puberty again. I am not an unhappy person. I am usually very positive, very happy, and strong. I can't stop crying. In fact I am tearing up while writing this. How could someones whose life is going exactly the way they want it too be so sad? I have nothing to complain about. My life is as perfect right now as it could be yet I can't stop these tears. I feel ungrateful and embarrassed. I know I have nothing to cry about but the tears won't stop. I feel like my heart is broken but nothing broke it. What can I do to stop these senseless emotions? What can I do to be myself? I know that I need a new way to fight my stress, but I don't realize I am stressed until it overpowers me like this. I guess I am used to pushing it down and before I would freak out I would eat it all away. I am not crying for help, I am not crying from happiness, I not crying for anything. I am just crying. I just can not stop crying.

When I start to feel too crazy I go work out. My anger seems to make me skinnier :thumbup:

Oh yeah. Sucks huh :thumbup: Most dr.'s advise their lapband patients against carbonated beverages because the gas can cause pain, and the carbonation can stretch the pouch Fibrous foods CAN cause problems. But asparagus is my favorite veggie and the only part I find hard to get down is the ends if they were not cut short enough. This is very individual, however. The hardest part for me was giving up champagne. Really, though soda's can be an addiction and giving up unhealthy addictions are never a bad idea. Water taste better to me now.

Agreed. But a big girl does not order six lbs of food on a first date, break the chair shrug and get another chair and continue stuffing their face. Nor is it usual to see them in a itty bitty bikini ( I guess some do but not around here anyway ) Just like I have never seen a group of bulemic blondes throwing up togethor in one bathroom like I have seen on tv. I think if you have a good movie you don't need that sterotypical crap. It's just unintelligent, to me.

Yay! Don't you feel better?

I agree with Jack. She must have taken her time to really consider how and why she was feeling negative things towards you and it takes a lot of courage to admit the things she has admitted to you. She either values your friendship enough to be honest...or doesn't care enough about you to care if she effects your feelings, I don't know her personally so I couldn't advise you either way. Heres the thing though. If these are her issues, you cannot let them effect you or the positive things you are doing with your life. You are on a long, sometimes hard journey and you don't need extra obstacles in your way. The really hard part about this is you have known her for ten years and if I was you I think I will feel betrayed that I invested so much time in a friendship that only existed because she likes the fact that you weren't as skinny as her. You are more than your weight. You are a combination of many variables as we all are. If she doesn't care for you for who you are but only because you make her feel pretty then I think it might be to finish cutting those chords of friendship that were frayed by her own selfish reasons for seeking your company. You are beautiful. Weight is not a reason to choose your friends.

This is true for the lapband...are you asking or telling? Are you talking about the lapband or bypass. I'm confused. Sorry.

Just keep swimming. So simple yet so true Rhapsody you rock. So does...whats that fishes Name?

Until now it has been my only support group also...but my emotions have been really bad for about a month and a half and I am scared that I need more. We don't have OA here, so I am looking into my Dr's support groups.

My Dr. does bypasses but he said that he only did bypass for people he felt didn't have two to five years to lose the weight, but that lap band was what he felt was the leading surgery today. They both work, but it is very individual. You have to do whats right for you. I think we both did this. I think that people need to do the right surgery for their particular needs. I feel like I have made the right choice, but just decide what works best for you OP and go for it. Good luck with your decision

Amen! I hate movies like that whether they are about Fatties, Aneroxics, Black, white, Mexicans, Asian, Male, female, gay, *insert any other label here* it's a false image they are providing and I think it is just stupid and distasteful. Shallow Hal tried to have a good message and I love Jack Black, but The movie was , as flipflop stated, just distasteful. I think the same thing about anything done recently by Carlos Mencia, college frat movies, etc. I am a movie snob. Be intelligent or atleast clever and don't rely on stupid sterotypes and making fun of people to entertain your viewers.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah!!!!

Oh that sucks. Silly term but I think it is a useful phrase for days such as that. I'm thankful you atleast have some extra cash at the moment to be able to handle it, but I HATE slaying all those dragons that situations like car wrecks cause. Good luck and I will be thinking of you.