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When I'm really sad the only thing I can think of is Dark chocolate Maggie Moo's icecream. No, not low fat, full on cellulite inducing real icecream. I've been really fighting this week, and it was a losing battle on friday. But I had to have four shots and blood drawn twice, I haven't had any sick days built up so I lost the pay, and my insurance hadn't changed over yet so I had to pay him 280 dollars to shot me up. I'm not going to beat myself up about it today. It was so sad.

Big 5-0 and happy about it. Only on this site :-) I am so glad you got to the goal. I can't wait to be there with you. I love you guys.

My weight does that too, but when it goes up I don't count it...I just wait for it to go down again.

Okay a new week, and last week I am throwing out the window. So I want to do 180 minutes of exercise this week. I need it. Thanks for the inspiration you guys.

Apples, your looking super cute. It looks like your getting that confidence as your pics progressed also. Way to go, hon.

Thats a really cool NSV. I love the idea of comparing the shirts. I will do that...later.

Not too great. I am gonna have to make it up next week. I got sick this week. I had to get four shots...in my butt. Talk about a sucky week.

In my dating community size isn't quite the issue it is in other dating pools, but I would think that BBW, especially on the internet, is a way for someone to weed out people who wouldn't like them anyway. It seems like such a waste of time for you to get to know someone onlline, go throught the phone thing, then finally meet and find out that he can't stand any kind of weight on a woman. It's a description. It just kinda sucks to tell someone your fat in anyway wheter its. I'm a fat ass, I'm a BBW, I'm pleasantly plump. The people who wouldn't care one way or the other because you are a cool person...well, then thats who you want to date anyway right? Why waste your time and the time of the guy who isn't attracted to people if they don't look like a movie star.

I am so glad to hear that. It's been such a headache for you. I am so happy you finally got fixed. Now take care of yourself and heal up.

yaaaaaay . Good for you.

I was thinking just the last couple of days that I have been eating like an unbanded person. Not like someone who has an eating disorder that is unbanded, just a healthy completely unbanded humanoid, which would be fine if I was maintaining but I am trying to lose it so its frustrating. But for now I am inpatiently waiting my fill. I've lost 35 since being banded too. I wish it was more...a lot more.

Awwww. Your so pretty.

I would love to go to a ren. fair. It sounds fun.

Queen- You are looking wonderful. And your hair is so pretty. LovableLynn-- you are truely beautiful. And you do have a very lovable face.

I like to use photobucket. They let you resize, edit them give you the code to copy and paste. It seems the easiest to me.

I want to take dance lessons and get a tatto i drew that I want to put on my back, but didn't want to until I lost weight. It will be pretty big so I would have to show my entire back and I am pretty modest.

Oh girl you and your hubby look 10 years younger. You are both totally hot people.

Not to bad, Karen. I am glad you had such a good time. I am going on a mini holiday in june, going to see Cats then off to the true colors concert...so about five days of parties. But...I think I will do ok. If I do as good as you I will be happy.

weekends are really hard for me too.

I bet that feels fantastic really. Thanks for the cup of inspiration this morning. I saw your pics you posted too, by the way. You look great.

aaaa. Waiting for a fill is the freaking worse. I want to just show up at the Dr.'s and tell them...yeah. I'm not leaving to ya fill me up, buddy. I got all day. I will bring a protest sign that says Hungry. Need Fill. and sit there stonily holding it. You think that will work?

So, gonna post some pics of you in your new duds?

Oh not quite...But about mid-April we do go swimming. Every year here we have a big festival here called "mudbug madness" where basically people sell really cajun food, handmade soaps etc. We have bands, and beer, and what not. This year I had about a 1/4 lb of crawfish, which is actually nothing. Well the point is it was 93 degrees yesterday. I put on spf 80 before going outside, but it was fun.

Okay- It's Monday soooooooooo I challenge myself to do 2.5 hours of full on exercise this week.

Bad week for me too. Desperate for a fill. It's like I'm not banded....at least that is how I felt, but then I realized that I have been slowly getting into the habit of drinking when I eat. Today I stop that. Today I stop that. Today I stop. So far so good. I'm not going to talk about what I have eaten. I just can't do it. The only plus is the 2.0 of exercise I did do. Which is 2.0 more than I usually do, but I the food... But I'm not going to drink while I eat. Not an hour before or an hour after and we will see how much of a difference that makes. Ezma- It's always hard to reduce again I think. You get out of your habits. It helps to break that plateau, but it's hard to make yourself stop again. Especially when eating more caused you to lose weight. Peeks- I'm sorry your frustrated. I'm having a huge slow down right now to.