Hellya

I must be the laziest person on the planet, I haven't worked outside the home in 25 years Seriously, we have 4 kids. They were in public school for a while. I had about 2 years of all of them being in school all day and it was heavenly (well, I volunteered a lot at their schools so that was busy) I loved, and still love, the times when I get to be home alone! Then we decided to pull everyone out of school and homeschool, so I was busy with that for 11 years or so. Now all the kids are grown up and I am focusing on me. I am pre-surgery, it sounds like you are doing great! I agree with Lisa, get out and walk (I have a couple of antique malls that I love to stroll around in, thinking about doing that this afternoon) journal, watch movies you have been wanting to watch for years, read (the library is always a fun outing) I also want to go through my closet, organizing things by size. My guess is you have things in there that are already too big Enjoy yourself!! Did I write this? Seriously, we have the same life. Ok, not the same, but similar. 3 kids. HS'd off and on but last year was my last year of doing it. My kids aren't all gone yet, but I'm home alone during the day and it's weird. I haven't figured out what to do yet. So far all I've done is watch a million and one vsg youtube videos, haha. My wood floors are on their way to being carpet--dog hair carpet . Anyway, I don't meet many other women who have not worked in 20+ years. Mostly, I get a strange look when I say I don't work. LOL

I have me pre-op appt today, and my surgery is two weeks from tomorrow. Time is both flying and standing still, LOL. I'm so ready to do this.

I struggle with this, too (I'm pre-op). The other thing I've been noticing is that I have anxiety when the fridge is full of food. I feel it shouldn't be wasted (and therefore I should eat it). So, I need to get better at buying smaller amounts of things, especially perishables. And cooking smaller amounts. My stepmom (born skinny, stayed skinny her whole life) is so good at this. She makes exactly enough, and her fridge is never full, let alone over full. I know it will be easier when my kids are gone, but I want to start changing that. My other issue is when there is nothing to eat--that makes me anxious, too. LOL. Maybe I need to shop every day, just what we need for that next day. I dunno.

I, too, worry about this, but after reading so many people's stories, I am not worried about year 1. What I'm worried about are years 2-40. I have no doubt I will lose weight. I worry that I will keep it off. That seems to be the struggle that is the real one. I have been thinking a lot about my current eating habits and while I refuse to believe they are cemented in (I have confidence I can make changes) they do seem to be deep in the tar pits. My two main issues are eating when I'm alone and grazing. Those are huge for me. I'm staring the desire to eat while alone right smack in the face right now since my kids are back in school. That habit? It started when I was a fat tween and was being watched closely by "concerned" parents. Any time I was alone, I would seize the opportunity to eat--to eat all the crap I wasn't allowed to eat. We didn't have sugar cereal in the house, but we did have cherrios and sugar. I would put TABLESPOONFULS of sugar into that bowl and eat bowl after bowl. Still have that issue. It's better, but it's still here. And grazing...why do I think I have to have something in my mouth at all times??? (insert inappropriate joke my husband would make here. (I've been married to that guy too long, he's infecting my brain!!! LOL)) But, seriously, WHY? I'll just have a bite of this. And a little of that...all day long. GUH. Anyway, my point is, that is my fear--the long game. I am hoping that thinking about this now--and hopefully as I am losing--I will be able to have a handle on it (somewhat) when things start to feel more "normal". This is not how I want to live anymore. It's scary as hell.

Don't you mean b o o o o o b s ? Or at least that's what I'm expecting MINE to look like.

HA!

I led you astray! Sorry about that! I don't start my pre-op until the 10th (I think). I'm not looking forward to it. Not in Canada, sorry. It's not so far away, though. I'm a couple hours from Vancouver, BC.

I'm cracking up. OF COURSE my first post was in the wrong thread. So...now that I'm in the right place, Sept 21st for me.

Sept 21st for me. One little month.