happy2bjcox

I too am discouraged, I'm using a scale which gives weight, bone mass, %Water, and %of body fat. I'm using a fitbit, and meeting my goals. I track my calories and Protein, I've scaled back to 550-650 calories a day. I drink plenty of water, and I gained 1.6 pounds this week. Since September 2 I have lost 4.8 pounds. I feel like the surgery is no help. If I had the discipline to restrict the foods I eat on a long term basis I would never have become fat. On September second I weighed 239.8, today 235.0! Ugh! I eat plain fish, tuna with mustard, and maybe celery and onion, chicken breast, and egg whites. I also eat diet Soup, rarely a diet mango smoothie, Protein Bars, and protein chips all from Bariatric Pal. I add garden salad mix, zucchini, Greek yogurt, sparingly ketchup, Morning Star Farms vegetable meat subs, and once some peanut powder stuff. I don't eat bread, cake, Cookies, the stuff that contributed to my obesity, also no crackers, chips, croutons, candy, and not even costco samples unless they are packed with protein, and low in fat. I use Costco's incarnation of Miralax, and laxatives. I'm scared. I can eat a lot. I don't dare mix things up too much more, if I play with food choices, just a bite of chocolate, crumbs from a muffin,, just to taste, or anything and I could be 280 again, maybe more. I had my surgery in July. My pre op diet helped me lose 15 pounds in three weeks. Post op nine weeks and my total loss is thirty pounds. I don't seem to effectively communicate how distressing this is for me.

I have felt like I could eat a lot from the start. It scares me a lot. I find having high Protein Soup helps. My doctor told me I could have all of the egg whites I want. Sometimes I eat what seems to be a great deal of eggs. It is more than a half cup. I am having a hard time moving away from liquid Protein foods because I am so fearful.

I was supposed to follow an eating plan prior to surgery. The 2nd day in I found my surgery date would have to be postponed.This was okay, because I didn't have the stuff to make my doctors specific drink, and this gave me time. While I was looking for the ingredients for the drink my doctor wanted me to make and consume have twice a day I realized I was repulsed with the recipe. I couldn't stand the idea of drinking egg whites. My brain knows it is fine, but I didn't like the notion, so pre op I cooked the eggs. The doc said it was fine. I told him twice more post op how I cooked my eggs, because he seemed fine with it. I wanted to make sure we all really understood. Eventually I mixed drink with milk, and kept on with my cooked eggs. I like the Soups, so I enjoyed a lot of them. When I was allowed I added Greek yogurt. I did a great job with the liver prep, because I did it for 3 weeks pre op. It has become kinda habitual. I didn't really want change anything. I have lost more than 500 lbs in 4 big diet extremes, and when I had surgery last month I became aware that at 55 I'm at my last shot, and I weighed about 280. I kinda want to be like the gambler, alcoholic, narcotics addict, and just be done with the stupid food thing, one day at a time. I have physical problems docs seem to think i won't be able to work on until I lose weight. I am having a sedentary recovery. I feel lucky I found this site pretty fast post of, I do wish I had found it sooner. Maybe I would have prepared better. No, I probably would have rushed right in. Does anyone else feel like I do? Is anyone else fearful to move beyond a comfortable step?

Agree with him. You are not close enough for him to understand how you got here. Tell him he is right. Remind him of all the easy choices and lucky breaks you have had,(Especially if you have had tragic times you can spin,) If you were lucky enough to ever be abandoned, sick, or poor, then you had sooo many God-given opportunities to keep things simple. My kids and I wrote our own holiday music, which we still sing. This God-given joy came from no radio/stereo music player! Also though, insist on credit for your cleverness. Your lazy, cop-out, flawed path belongs to you. You can't help it if he chose to fight windmills even when it was so hard. You were smart enough to wait until the right time for you You can choke on his superiority, or plant sly seeds of doubt until he chokes on himself.

yep, and I wonder why did I go through this to sabotage myself.