DaphneZ

So i have an update, i changed dr after being turned down over and over by the psych. I wanted to start in a complete new place because it didn't feel good anymore. Had to wait a a bit more than a month for all the pre op consults and they went really good. I trust these people and regret not going there in the first place... So last week I had my last appointment with Dr Ceuleman and got my date! 18/01, I'm so excited, scared but happy ????. I have to do shakes 2 weeks pre op, 600kcal a day, I hope it won't be to hard while working (I'm a full time nurse)... Verstuurd vanaf mijn HUAWEI CRR-L09 met Tapatalk

Don't give up! Take it one day, one hour, one minute, or even one second at a time. Have you considered attending some OA meetings? You may find it helpful. There is information and meeting lists online at OA.org. I never know there were meetings in my country. At this moment I'm talking to my psych about my eating habbits (every 2-3 weeks), I just recently opend up to her about it. I will keep the meetings in mind for the future, but at this point I'm just to ashamed to talk to others ( face-to-face) about my binging. I just need to get used to talking about it first. Oh and the clinic also has a psych talking to me every month and my Other psych (doctor) also knows about my BED, and I talk to him every month.... So enough talking for now

I'm in specific treatment for my eating disorder, it was the first condition for being allowed in the surgery program, its hard but I know it will be worth it in the end. Thanks for the tip anyway

I had a big boost in motivation today, I have a few days of work and went to a zoo, something I really enjoy. After not even seeing half of the park I was so exhausted that I had to choose what animals I really wanted to see because I wasnt able to visit all of them. I'm so angry for letting myself get so far, but if I have to pick the biggest reason for doing the surgery its for being able to do normal stuff like this, getting my condition back.

Pfff, had a bad day today, I ate everything I could find... Now I feel like I should give up and that I'm not strong enough to work on my binging. I hope i get some new motivation tomorrow