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Today is my bandiversary. No pics...I'm still too self-conscious. But I too want to spend a few moments thinking of what has happened to me in this time. I have (the issue of pictures aside) gained in self-confidence and feel better about who I am. Not just how I look, but who I am. I feel less bitter about how big I am, lament less about how clothes don't fit, how ugly I am. The scales at the doctor aren't my mortal enemy (although I still won't let them into my house!), and I will go swimming - egads, wearing a bathing suit in public (it's a quick race to the side of the pool and in the Water, but it is in public)!! Although I am still aware of the wing-flaps I have for upper arms, I dared to wear a sleeveless dress for the first time since maybe 1975! Only once, but I did it! I still have a LONG way to go both physically and mentally but I have been on the journey for 6 months and am prepared to continue for the next 6 months. Much of that self-determination has been reinforced by YOU my fellow VV's (and others on the LBT board). So, thank you. I will admit the occasional frustration/jealousy when for many of you the weight is 'falling off' whereas I am a slooooowwwww loser, and I do repeat the mantra of 'it isn't a race; it isn't all about the scales etc' . But sometimes IT IS TOO!!!!:wink2: Anyway, I have rambled on (in my usual style)...

No one in my immediate family, or on either branches of the family tree are overweight. In fact, most are really skinny - and not due to any effort, just that's their build/metabolism. My brother and sister both have been called scrawny all their lives, and (in their youth) tried for years to gain weight . I remember everyone saying 'oh, that will change when they reach their teens, or twenties or midlife'...now nearing their 60's it still hasn't hit them!) My brother is over 6 feet and still weighs less than 130 pounds...and he hates it!! So although I was the biggest baby on record at the hospital in which I was born (the record held for about 10 years), I don't hold anyone but me responsible for my weight...unless someone can tell me it's ok to blame my mother, it isn't my fault, etc....JUST JOKING!!

That's fabulous! congratulations, whoo hoo, and I'll join Ezma in doing a happy dance!

Menopause.:cursing::wink2::cursing::frown:

Nina - :clap: Consider yourself 'Whoo hoo'ed" Jachut - belated birthday. If ever I become small enough to fit into a bikini (and the thought of that is making me giggle!), I won't wear it - too many scars to expose to the general public...but that's many hours/weeks/months of sweat away!

Monday morning - need coffee. Lots of hot black coffee. Monday, #$%^$#^ Monday.

Just wasted time watching "Everything is Illuminated"...well, that's time I will never get back! :mad2: Note to self: Beware all movie recommendations from co-worker K.

Nope, he wanted someone who wouldn't be seen or heard unless at his whim...there's a term for that isn't there? Servant?

That just might be of help...well, that and just not snacking at all! I really am going to make an effort this week to avoid the evening munchies...I have about a zillion sewing/needlework/gardening/painting projects I could be doing. I know what the problem is, I know what to do, I know I can do it...I just need to do it!

Eeyore, I am so pleased that you are starting to feel better about your situation...and yahoo on down 2 dress sizes! Keep focused on your goal and a positive attitude. Take care.

Yesterday B - 2 egg cheese omelette (split with DH) L - 1/2 pork chop (previous nights leftovers); 1/2 cup coleslaw S - FIRST TIME EVER I forgot about supper...(the grumbling wasn't my stomach, it was DH) Snack - 2 sf puddings I've just got to work on the evening snacks; they are starting to become a habit rather than a treat. Bad!!! Looking forward to the "fake-out baked spaghetti squash" tonight!

Yes indeed, my bills keep increasing. This is despite replacing all light bulbs with energy efficient ones, using the clothes dryer less and clothesline more, setting the thermostats higher (for the summer months), and any number of 'green' things...sadly my paycheque is not increasing at the same pace as my bills. And JulieN, I love the tag line on your signature..

Some people just are batshit crazy!

Posting to say it is Saturday morning and raining again...I want a refund on this summer!

I know that nuts are good for you, but they are just so addictive! I wish I could be satisfied with 8 or 10 almonds, but sadly I'm not. Hanging my head in shame, I confess that last night I ate 1 cup of sesame seeds...1 cup. The good thing is, they are now finished, out of the house. The bad thing...I want them or almonds or pistachios or endame or...!

That's a whole new thread - Weirdo's I have dated. Believe me, I have encountered the looney-tunes list of losers!

I haven't had a carbonated drink (and I was a 2l a day diet coke addict), nor any alcohol since 1 week pre-op....in Feb. I've considered having a glass of wine at different times, but then just said, hell for the same calories I could have XYZ. I prefer to eat than drink, so wine has lost every time! Not to say that won't change sometime, but so far, no alcohol.

Yesterday: Breakfast: 1/2 cup blueberry yogurt with 1/2 banana sliced Lunch: chicken salad Supper: 1/2 thick porkchop, sliced fresh tomato Snack: 1 cup of sesame seeds (eeks! addictive they are)

I haven't found a food I can't swallow! I don't seem to have the same variability/fickleness of the band as others; I just eat smaller portions and chew the chewiness out of them. I PB'd on fish once, and that turned me off for a few days, but that's long gone now. I eat anything.

I was feeling so good - a sunny Friday in August..and then this news! I am not as happy now.

Posting to say Yahoo - it's Friday!

Valvinnek - thanks for the update. I hope this time the restriction 'holds'. Fingers crossed.

Posting to say I'd rather be outside playing in the sunshine...damn working for a living!

The experience of several women here is that many men do!:biggrin:

I've had lots of surgery - appendectomy, gallbladder, uterus, ovaries, and more, all at different times. I've also had ulcers, and a few other intestinal things just to make life interesting! None of these affected my approval for laproscopic banding. More than once I've suggested a zipper would be a useful addition to my gut! :biggrin: