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Tap is back!!! Whoo Hoo!!! Nope not you. Just a rough spot on my part. I love RHPS!!!! First time I saw it was in my early 20's. So fun! Now. I've never seen it at a theater but have heard the stories. Not sure I would go b/c of that. Howdy Lady! How are you? ~~~~~ Fine here. Feeling a lot better. DD now has it and will miss school tomorrow and probably Thursday. Had my gyno appt today. Off the depo and re-starting BC pills. He also put me on prozac to see if it would help w/my migraines and mood swings during PMS. Kinda weird feelin' about that. But if it helps all the better. I'll go get the Rxs tomorrow sometime. We'll see how that works and I'm going to have some tests done. He'll do a full hysterectomy if needed but it will be at a later date. New furnace being installed tomorrow. Looking forward to that. Well, having a furnace again, not the bill! We primarily use our stove for heating but we use the furnace for back-up - early AMs when it's cold or if we're gone all day, it takes the chill off while I get the fire going. Work and woodcutting on the agenda for the rest of the week. Have a great Tuesday!

Well, I managed to GAIN! Part of the problem is that I went off my HCTZ and it helps w/water weight as well as BP. Had to go back on it yesterday. BP isn't quite ready for me to be completely free of my meds. I'm down to a 1/4 of a pill tho and we'll see how that works for me for awhile. So my end weight was 178.3. I think my start was about 175. something. Can't remember now! Thanks, Misty! I think you did GREAT! Congrats on your loss!!

WTG!!! Hope you had a blast! Hi!!!! So glad you found us! Totally didn't occur to me to PM you a link! Duh!!! Sorry about that! You totally can NOT worry about the weight gain right now! I am figuring it just gives you something else to focus on but really, it's not all that important right now! You need to keep yourself up and positive and ready to take on the world! You are in my prayers and I'm pulling for you!! Take good care and keep checking in when you can! ~~~~~ Have a gynp appt. tomorrow. Hoping to get some answers and some relief and a plan of action or something. We'll see what happens. Tired of the same old, same old. We'll also go to Trader Joe's and a couple of other errands while we're down there. Feeling better. Hoping I'm on the other side of this garbage now. Hate being sick! Better head to bed. Hope y'all have a great Monday!

Hi everyone! Jenn, so sorry to hear about your baby boy! Prayers he's on the mend soon. I hope tomorrow works out well for you. I know what it's like to be in a bind w/the kiddos. DD did a fever on our marathon road trip from Oregon (10hrs!). We're at a rest stop and soaking a pot holder (it's what we had!) with tap water to "wash" her face and put on her forehead and the back of her neck. Gave her some children's tylenol and had her eating ice chips and she came down in no time. Scary tho! I hate when she's sick! I always want to give in to her every whim and spoil her. I don't for the most part. I just know it will come back to bite me later! :scared2: Suzie, love the pics. Woodcutting is on our agenda for the week as it will be for the rest of the month. We have til the 30th or til the weather closes the roads, whichever comes first, to get all we need for the winter. ~~~~~ Starting to feel better. Hoping I'm on the other side of this now. Watching the news right now. It's depressing. A 4yr old boy wandered away from home while his dad was taking a shower. They couldn't find him anywhere. Mid-afternoon the next day he was found stuffed in a neighbors dryer. A 14 yr old boy is being charged w/his murder. It's so sad. The teen's mother would babysit for the little boy and other children. Worries me some b/c I think about DD wandering out the door while I'm in the shower too. She does know better but she's also 3. I can totally see her wanting to be a big girl and help and either letting the dog out, who will take off if not on leash, or opening it for someone or ... Tho I do have to say, a month or so ago while I was in the shower she came running in b/c someone was here. She knew it wasn't UPS (no big brown truck) or papa or his friends (no big red engine). She told me it was people walking. It was a religious group that comes thru the neighborhood periodically. I told her to ignore the door and just stay in the LR and watch her show. (In the meantime I'm trying to get out faster than normal.) She was all indignant that they were even here and wanted to tell them to leave! I was laughing! According to her, they weren't papa or his friends and they weren't UPS bringing a box so they didn't belong here! LOL!! Have my gyno appt tomorrow. We'll see what happens. Not sure if I'm looking forward to it or not! I just want some answers and relief! Hope y'all have a great Monday!

The little monsters! LOL!! J/K!! Way to go! Isn't it amazing where you find yourself a year later? I keep being surprised and comparing things to how it would have been last year or before surgery! Keep up the great work! And don't be surprised if they STILL don't want to go w/you T or T'ing. Now tho it will be for different reasons! :Yawn:

Ebony, sounds like you're going to have fun this weekend! A friend did an internship at DW and she loved it! Last I heard she was working for DL here in CA and still loving it! Prayers that your DD gets it and enjoys it just as much as my friend did!! Congrats on your upcoming bandiversary! Amazing where we've come from, isn't it?! ~~~~~ Still have my cold and feeling awful. Yuck! Not doing anything for Halloween today/tonight. DD already had two parties this week and has some candy to show for it so I think she's good for now. Next year I'll have to be on the ball more. DH will be home for it too so that will help. We'll need to decorate (we haven't decorated for years now). Maybe we'll have a little party too. We'll see. I'm going to have to do some better planning, that's for sure! Monday I have an appt w/my Gyno. Hoping to get some answers from him. Been having "female" problems w/my cycle. Thought Depo shots would help but it's been over a year and it's not helping. May be looking at a hysterectomy. It's the only thing that I know of for sure to take care of my "issues." So NOT wanting surgery but need to do SOMETHING! We'll see what he says. Better go. DD is hungry. Have a great weekend!

Hi! Still have my cold. Feel awful. All I want is orange juice right now and we don't have any. :Yawn: DD was Tinkerbell this year. Too cute. She's had 2 parties already, one Tues. night at church and one at school on Thurs. We're not doing anything today/night. Just watching movies on TV and DVD today. We live in the mtns and neighborhoods aren't too conducive to trick or treating. There are some Trunk or Treating events going on but I'm just not up to it tonight. If DH was home that would be different. At 3, she kinda knows stuff is going on but she still doesn't quite "get it" yet so I'm kinda clear for this year. Next year we'll need to be on the ball more. We'll decorate and take her out or maybe have a little party. DH will be home for it next year so that will help too. Jenn, nice tat. I want more but can't spend the money on it right now. I'd also have to find an artist. The guy that did mine is long gone now. Congrats on the goal levels at the Y! Kat, sorry you're in a mood. I certainly know what that's like! Don't leave us! Hi to everyone! Hope y'all have a great day doing whatever makes you happy!

Your para sounds wonderful! Ice cream is EVIL!! I have peppermint in the freezer right now. This is the only time of year Dryers puts it out. It's slow churned but still. I'll be eating it til it's off the shelves. I do every year. Granted my portions are WAY smaller than they used to be but still. It's my weakness. Okay, well one of them. I seem to have many lately!! Oh and the image of your butt eating ice cream should cure me but alas, it doesn't! :lol: You're very welcome and it always does (suck, I mean). Just know that we're here for you! Go to bed and get some rest! Oh and as for your DS. :eek: LOL! Had to laugh tho b/c DD is obsessed with boobs and babies in tummies! She's 3 so what are ya going to do! LOL! ~~~~~ So DH goes to work today to find they've got a working structure fire. He grabs his gear and drives over to relieve the Engineer on duty and takes over. Unfortunately it was a total loss. It was fully engulfed before they even got the call. He calls me this afternoon and asks if I wouldn't mind picking up pizza for them. Nope, don't mind a bit. They're tired and after the fire they had to clean and put the engine back together so they don't want to cook but they definitely want to eat! LOL! So then he asks if I can call in the order too! Sheesh! So I do! Of course! He knew I would. :sad: Anyway, so DD and I go take the pizza to them and stayed to have some too. DD and I each ate 1 piece. By the time they got thru, there was only 1 piece left! I honked when I pulled in so I could get some help carrying everything in. (I'd also brought left-over dessert I'd made for IL's when they came for dinner and there was a lot left over. Knew we wouldn't eat it and I didn't want to have to toss it later so I took it to the station. Knew they'd eat it. I'm sure they wiped it out after we left!) So when I honked ALL of them came out to help!! LOL!! They wanted their pizza!! The pumpkin cake was a nice surprise for them! Off to bed soon. Have a great night y'all!

Oh isn't that just great! NOT! Sheesh! What timing! I certainly hope there are no repercussions from this. Guess next time you'll eat w/the kids! Cool! Too bad for the others. They'll either get over it or go find other jobs. Sounds like a great opportunity! And getting some hours back ain't half bad either!! Ummm, yep, breathing is kinda important. Blue isn't usually a good skin color unless you're related to a Smurf! And a drink ALWAYS helps! LOL! ~~~~~ So picked up pizza and delivered it to the station. I beeped the horn twice to get some help and ALL of them came out!!! LOL! Think they were a little hungry! They had a structure fire this AM so the whole day was a wash and eating was off and when they expend energy like that, they're starving!! Sunday I'd made a pumpkin cake for dessert w/the IL's here for dinner. We hardly ate any of it. It took my 9x13 casserole dish so it was big. I took that w/us tonight so the boys could eat it and get it out of my house. I would have had to toss it otherwise. They get a sweet treat and I don't have to eat it, look at it, or throw it away later! LOL! I always do that. I'll make something and take it to the station so they can have it. DD was amped up tonight! Sheesh! She was so tired and I thought she'd go down quick tonight but nope. She finally fell asleep about 10. She's done that all week now. Not looking forward to the time change this weekend. I don't know what it's going to do to her sleeping pattern. If I'm lucky it will get her back on track but I'm never that lucky! LOL! Have a great night y'all!

LOL!!! I can hear her! Oh wait, might be MY mom! LOL!!! I don't think you're being cruel. That would be distracting. I think it's great tho, that the station took a chance on her. She must have SOME talent. Don't bite too hard! Like to new pic! Speaking of pics, where's TUG????????!!!!!! Are you liking the new training/position that you're doing at work? Does it mean you get some of your hours back? Sure hope so! Hi Ebony!! UGH!!! Just gotta love surprises at work. NOT!!! Hang in there. They always leave eventually! ~~~~~ Not much going on. DH just called. He and the boys want pizza tonight so "can you pick it up and oh by the way can you call and order it too!" LOL!!! DD and I will eat with them. She's all excited about it. DD had her little party at school. It was cute to see all of the costumes the kids were wearing. While DD was at school I came home and got the quarterly tax reports done then we took them to the post office after school. Glad to have that done! Well, better order pizza and get ready to head out the door! BBL!

~Jenn, I'm sorry it's been continued til Dec. That's sucks. Lots of hugs and good thoughts to you. ~Kat, had to LOL at the snow drivers. I love snow but you're right, no one seems to be able to drive in it! ~Irene, thanks for all of your support. I appreciate it. I am just going to have to work thru this process. And it is the HCTZ. I'm glad to be off. I'm still checking my levels to make sure I'll stay down but seems to be doing alright so far. Had just gotten a new bottle too so I have tons leftover. Congrats to you on reducing your meds! That's great news! Good news re: your mom, too. Must be a relief! I am pretty sure I'm on the mend. I'm feeling a lot better. Stuffy still but it might be some allergies too. I don't really have them but I've noticed that every year something bugs my nose. Very cold here. I've got a fire going in the stove. It took a long time to get the house warmed up today. We were out the door right after getting up so I didn't factor in time to get the fire going and taking the chill off before we left. We get our new furnace next week so we'll be able to use that to take the chill of in the AM while I get the stove going or if we have to rush out the door. We got bales of straw yesterday to surround the veggies pots to insulate them a little and be able to cover them with plastic when needed. Most stuff will be done soon and then I won't have to cover it. Once it's consistently cold and not warming up at all (supposed to hit 80's next week!) I'll use some of the straw to finish covering the artichoke plant and bed it for the winter. Wishing I had a greenhouse right about now! Have a great evening. I'll BBL.

HI! How is everyone? I know I haven't been around for very long but I've missed everyone! I'm doing better today. I've been sick again and hit the wall yesterday... hard. I was starting to think that DH might have to send me to the hospital but I couldn't figure out what they would do for me so never said anything about it to him (he knew I was sick and hurting tho). I thought my head was going to explode and at a few points, was hoping it actually would b/c then the pain would hopefully stop! I think I'm on the other side of it now. I'm hoping. I'm really not sure what was happening but it hurt. On top of that, stopping my BP med caused a 6lb gain in 3 days!! So that's been depressing on top of it all. It was a diuretic and I'm a bad water-weight gainer to begin with. I actually had thoughts of going back on it just to lose the water-weight! Sick, huh? As far as my funk, I think I'm on the other side of that as well. I've now got to get back to my walking. It's been so hard to even get motivated. I've just GOT to do it! I go see my surgeon again in a couple of weeks. I need another fill so I'm looking forward to it. Won't be happy w/the scale but I can only do so much about it. I've got to figure out a way to stop stressing over what the scale says. Hope y'all have a great night and a happy Thursday!

OH MY GOSH!!!! :thumbup: That's wonderful! Didn't know you were having surgery already! I'm so excited for you! Take good care of yourself and let us know how you're doing!!

TAP! DON'T GO!!! I'm here. Been sick again. Got a lot of physical stuff going on and it's depressing me. Tired of feeling like crap all the time. Yesterday was awful. So bad I was near tears and ready to go to the hospital but didn't know what that would accomplish! MUCH better today so hoping I'm on the other side of "it." On top of that - went off my diuretic BP med b/c my BP was dropping too low and gained 6lbs in 3 days! All water weight but it's depressing to see the scale hit 180 again. Slowly getting it back down again but it's not pretty and I'm not happy about it. I'll try to check in more now that Im feeling better. Take care y'all! TTFN!

Thanks you two. I really appreciate the support. I managed a loss for the week. 175.6 175.3 I'll take the 3/10s. It's ugly but it's a loss and NOT a gain. I do make myself write it all down. I don't like it but it's there whether it's on paper or not so I make myself own up to it and put it in my calendar and on my ticker/signature. It then makes me feel better when I can also add the losses. Meager tho they may be. Hope y'all have a good week.

I'm here, Tap. Checking in. Still in a funk. My head feels weird. Like light-headed on the verge of a migraine all the time, kinda thing. Makes me feel funky and not in the mood for much of anything. I stopped my BP med again to see if that makes a difference. I had started only taking 1/2 (instead of a whole 1) after my last appt w/my surgeon but I'm wondering if it's still too low. I checked my BP this AM and it was on the low end but when I took it again a little bit ago, it was up a little again. Not bad, by any means so I think I'll see what happens with going off altogether for awhile. Actually managed a slight loss this week after gaining 3lbs in the last 2 weeks previous. It's only 3/10ths but I'll take it at this point. Better than a gain! I know what the problem is but trying to stop it is proving difficult. I'm snacking. Hungry or not. AND it's salty/spicey stuff. Like a Cajun Trail Mix I found at Wal Mart last week. Bag is gone now so I just have to stop myself from buying more. Tho there are cheezits and goldfish in the house for DD too. Those I can resist a little easier but not by much! Anyway, I'm just trying to get myself back to ME and having a hard time. Not wanting to be a drag so that's why I haven't been posting. Don't have much to say and it's all a downer anyway. :closedeyes: I'll talk to y'all later. Take care in the meantime.

Hi everyone. Just checking in again. Still in a funk. My head has been feeling funny. I do have migraines but I've been feeling light-headed and achy (in the head). I took my BP this AM and it was on the low side and I hadn't taken my pill yet. I went down to a half after my last appt w/my surgeon so I didn't take it today. I'm going to keep checking it every AM and see how I feel. I need/want to walk but not enough to get out there and DO it! Need to get off my butt. I've been gaining the last few weeks and that doesn't help either. My goal this week (I weigh everyday but only count Friday) was to just NOT gain again. I actually managed to lose 3/10ths of a lb. I'll go with it. I know what the problem is but fixing it is easier said than done right now. (I'm snacking, hungry or not, and it's salty/spicy stuff.) So anyway, trying to work myself back to me and it's proving difficult. Better go. DD is hungry. I'll check in again at some point. Take care everyone.

Hi! I'm glad you checked in and you made your goal!!!! WTG!! I haven't posted b/c I gained... again. I've been in a funk and I'm eating and most of it's crap. Hate when I do this. Trying to get back on track but having a really hard time. So, last week: 174.1 this week: 175.6 It sucks. My goal WAS 170 but now I'm just hoping to not gain AGAIN! We'll see what happens.

Whoops! Sorry about that! I didn't catch that you already had reflux BEFORE banding. Makes a huge difference and nullifies my post! So much for trying to help! LOL! I did forget to say in my previous post that I'm glad the enzymes seem to help. Wouldn't have thought about trying that. I heard another gal on here the other day talk about taking Aloe that she got at her natural foods store to sooth her tummy. That might help you too.

Wow! That looks great! We'll have to try it. DD would probably like it too, tho she does like to eat my crust when we do regular pizza!

I'm so sorry that you are going thru this. Can I please give you another perspective? I have never been in your situation b/c I simply can NOT get pregnant. BUT I have a beautiful 3 year old now due to her birthmother's very tough decision. Our birthmother was in a situation somewhat similar to yours and instead of an abortion decided to make an adoption plan for the child she felt she couldn't raise. We picked our daughter up from the hospital when she was 2 days old. Because of our birthmother's decision, I have finally become a mother. If you would like to talk to someone, I can give you numbers/website of the agency we went thru. PM me. They only talk with you to help you thru what you are going thru. They can help you find answers to your questions and not even about making an adoption plan. They have counselors that you can speak with about anything. They don't expect ANYTHING from you. They are just there to try to help you clarify things and come to some sort of a decision regarding you and your life. They aren't going to be pushing anything and I'm not either. I just know that they may be a place for you to be able to talk with someone who is capable of helping you make some tough decisions. Lots of prayers for you.

You shouldn't be having reflux after a fill. If nothing else has changed, eating habits (right before bed, what you're eating, etc), then you probably should have a slight unfill. Best to call your doc tomorrow and check w/him. He may have you come in. Don't let this go too long or you could cause some serious problems. Stomach acid in the esophagus for any length of time is not a good thing! Take care.

Hi. Just wanted to check in. Been in a funk the last couple of days and haven't felt like doing anything, even posting. Can't tell if it's b/c I'm coming down with something or just b/c. Strange. Have a great week.

Hey y'all. Just checking in. I've been in a funk the last couple of days and haven't felt like doing much, including posting. I can't tell if I'm coming down with something and that's the problem or what. Guess I'll find out. Hope everyone is doing well. Have a great week.

I got seriously stuck on my BP pill and had to have an emergency and complete unfill after throwing up for 36 hrs. I now chew it up w/my calcium chew to cover the bitterness of it. It's not a huge pill, about the length of my pinkie fingernail and narrower than the same nail. I will NOT take any chances with trying to swallow pills now. I've gone to liquid or chews with everything. I think Mucinex makes liquids too. I always took that b/c it worked so well for me but no more. At least not in pill form. Any time-release pill will have the same issues regarding crushing or chewing.