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That just sounds like a mean awful person...who says that! I can't imagine why someone would say that other than they are unhappy with themselves. Move on, you are doing great! Don't let this person steal your positive energy.

Today as I was deleting files from my computer I came across so many of my journal entries that I make year after year. Promising myself that this will be the year...wanting to change only to fail once again. It makes me sad that these years have passed me by. I hope once and for all I can change, fulfill the promise I made and that my surgery will be a success. This was my last journal entry made in December of this year. Has anyone else had these feelings? December 15, 2015 Dear Sarah Only you can make the change. You have been so unhappy with yourself year after year only to be stuck in a cycle that never gets you to where you want to be. How long are you going to continue down this path? You binge eat to fill a void, you hide away because you are embarrassed and insecure. You have stopped seeing people and lost friendships. You could be so much happier and have a more fulfilling life. You have the power to make the choice to look and feel healthier. You and only you have the power! I am writing a promise to myself this Tuesday December 15th to lose this weight and get in shape once and for all. I promise myself I will make this my number one priority in my life this day forward. I am not going to talk about what I am going to do. I am just going to do it, doing it for myself. I will look my best at Allie and Grant’s Graduation. I will wear a beautiful dress to Molly and Michael's wedding. I love myself. I am a good person. I release the negative feelings. I forgive and I move forward. I allow myself to experience my feelings, and release all those which are negative. ... Sincerely-Your future self Sarah

This was the question my husband asked me today. I was telling him how excited I was to start over in life. To feel good about myself. I go to bed every night feeling so unhappy with myself. I avoid old friends and struggle with finding clothes to wear I have made excuses not to see people..it's so sad that I have lost friendships and avoided people. My husband and I go out together and love to eat and drink wine together, He loves food and a good bottle of wine. He loves when I am silly. He is afraid I am going to be skinny but no fun..lol I think I am going to be happier in life. How relationship with your significant other changed?

Do you have to do a certain protein shake? What are the requirements? Isagenix or spiratein shakes are good but I wonder in they have too many carbs or sugar grams.

You got this! . Ready to start this new beginning. Look back at pictures, remember why you wanted this. I know when I feel the doubts sneaking in I think of where will I be if I continue to stay in this same unhappy place. I will be thinking of you and sending positive thoughts!

You loved him and wanted it to work. keep moving forward and let go of the past. Make yourself a priority.

Wow you are all great! I am excited to start this new part of my life. I would love to be a stress cleaner...lol I am looking forward to so many new adventures and changes! I am a little anxious about the unknown but trying to prepare myself as much as possible. I love this board. THANK YOU!

July 5th would love to have a group together. I am excited and nervous about what I will be eating the first month!

Actually what go me to 220 is compulsive eating from stress and then being uhappy with myself....such a vicious cycle I have made for myself. I like thinking of other ways to have more fun together

Thanks everyone I guess he is thinking we won't be sharing that part of our life together anymore. He asked if I was still going to cook for him too! I told him better healthier foods. I feel bad because I have made up so many excuses in my life not to go places Even faked being sick. How horrible. We have always had fun together. He doesn't know the extent of my unhappiness. I now fun isn't defined by how much you eat and drink but sharing food and wine together is fun. Kindafamiliar you are hilarious..you make me laugh out loud!

I don't have to be on a preop diet but thinking I should start going low carb and giving up caffeine and sugar. I have been eating horrible out of nerves and knowing how my lifestyle and diet will be changing, I get anxious but then thnk of how unhappy I have been. I know the first month will be hard but I know it will get better each day, I have been trying to research everything. Do you know what Protein shake you will use after surgery?

I remember the walking did help but feeling it in my shoulder. I had my gall bladder out in Florida when I arrived to visit my husbands parents on vacation. I was in so much pain when I was on the plane and that night, The doctor told me I would feel great after the surgery that I could eat anything I want. I was surprised how bad I felt. I was actually mad at the doctor because he really played everything down! Not looking forward to the pain but preparing myself.

I had my gallbladder out last summer and the pain was horrible...I was hoping the gastric sleeve gas pain would be better. UGH Do the gas x strips help??

Hi I am July 5th too! I think I am more excited than nervous. I am ready to start changing. I have not been happy in the place that I have been in over the past 10 years. So when I think of losing this weight I feel excited, I am a little anxious about what it is going to be like the that first few weeks and first month.

Reading all these changes are all ones I am hoping to make. Better marriage, same job but reaching out to people more and taking care of me. My youngest will head to college in the fall and I want a new beginning for myself too!

I am keeping it a secret The only ones who know are my husband, mom and aunt. I just want to keep it private. I think you should do what makes you feel comfortable in life. When I lose the weight I am telling people it's through low carb and exercise. I have been in situations where I wasn't drinking and instead of saying I am not drinking I just held it and then switched glasses with my husband.There is ways to be subtle and not draw attention to yourself.

I think it is just the thought of going out of the country, I told my mom I was going to Texas, which is a half truth since I am flying into Texas. She couldn't understand why I couldn't find a doctor close by. I shr owed her the doctor and all his credentials, She just wouldn't;t be able to wrap her head around it!

No need to be embarrassed you have to do what is best for you and if it isn't feeling right then you made the right choice. Do not beat yourself up and keep moving forward to a healthier positive place!

Thinking of you! Can't wait to hear about your experience.