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tryingtobemybest

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  1. tryingtobemybest

    Depressed

    @@oburawa Thanks for your words. I know going in my intentions were of sound mind your so right. i remind myself this all the time along with all the other possible benefits. However i know im mentally off. I know it. I cry at everything, iv lost my appetite. Feeling an all time low. Its been more prevalent in the last few days and my husband sees it too. I think i might need to see someone. Maybe its a mental imbalance? Im praying so hard it passes. 4weeks in its gradually gotten worse, and this weekend was my lowest.
  2. tryingtobemybest

    Depressed

    Hi there Im actually experiencing alot of depression too. im 4 weeks out and im starting on normal foods. After the surgery i honestly felt so much regret. I know my diet was off and this was new but i still feel depression ever day at some point. I never had these feelings before and they are very mixed Highs and lows. I would regret i did the surgery, my mind would linger on how i should have dieted and did it the old fashion way, only my husband knows i did this but i feel ashamed that i took this root, its feels like i cheated and im dishonest. I was a yoyo dieter and i couldn't keep my weight in check,l i did this for my future health but i wish i never did it. Im losing weight slowly, i have a lower bmi so thats bound to happen and Im ok with that. I never once thought i would have these emotions. Every night my mind just goes over and over silly things, and the same things, regrets, my life is forever changed, permanently changed, health issues ( if any come up) eating tiny portions in public making me self conscious. Ashamed and more I don't feel grateful at all, mostly guilt and regret. My regular doctor advised me not to do it since i had low bmi and said is a big mistake and that i should go the natural route. That comes in my head all the time. I paid myself for this and i think i might need to see a counselor to vent but i feel like a mess. Im praying i over come this with time, i don't want it to get worse.
  3. Im 15 days post op, i started at 196lbs, and lost 10lbs up till now. The scale hasn't moved for 5 days though. I understand i will stall, but just feel a little defeated. Eating is a new ball game, im on the soft stage and the pressure and tightness after eating a few bites is really tough. Some things are going down well, yogurts, banana and liquids but i vomited up eggs today. After a week on softs im adjusting but please tell me there is hope. 6months or a year later, has that sensation of tightness and pressure gone after eating? can you eat normally ? a regular meal albeit a small portion but can you comfortably eat a small meal and feel ok? Can you go to a restaurant and enjoy a small meal ? I just feel a little overwhelmed at times, did i do the right thing? I have a lower BMI but have been overweight all of my adult life and my family history in health is really bad i wanted this to help me lose weight with consistency. I can't tell you how many times i would diet to only fall off the wagon again and again. I want to be proactive and make a positive change for the better. I would appreciate any advice and guidance This site has been so informative for me
  4. @@OutsideMatchInside Thank you for your guidance, im praying i get more comfortable with it and it gets easier
  5. tryingtobemybest

    Hello Ramadan

    @☁9⃣B Hi im curious how your Ramadan went last year, i know its starting again now. Did you get through it ok?
  6. @@OutsideMatchInside Thank you that helps. Everyday is improving however im trying to mentally come to terms with this step i have taken. I didn't realize i would question myself and feel some regret. Im praying with time and improved health this will reaffirm my decision. But i gotta be honest i have moments in the day i feel mad at myself for taking such an aggressive route. Maybe once i lose some extra weight i will feel differently. I hope so.
  7. @@OutsideMatchInside Wow this sounds really good. Thanks so much for replying ! Gosh eggs is a pain in the butt ! This was my second time and im done with those for a while. Im so glad there is improvement and hope, i know mentally im hoping for too much too soon. But i want to be able to enjoy food again too, right now feels so restricted. My doctor stressed to me that the stomach and esophagus will take time to coordinate. I understand the density and consistency that you're talking about, im already feeling out better food options that go down easily. Do you still drink your fluids after your meal? or are you able to combine? @@yguess Thanks so much I hear you i need to work on my Protein, im on the soft stage for 3 weeks, so i need to think of good ways to get it in other than shakes. I will look into the options and increase it. Thanks for the atkins document Im just hoping that tightness improves with time.
  8. Im 15 days post op, i started at 196lbs, and lost 10lbs up till now. The scale hasn't moved for 5 days though. I understand i will stall, but just feel a little defeated. Eating is a new ball game, im on the soft stage and the pressure and tightness after eating a few bites is really tough. Some things are going down well, yogurts, banana and liquids but i vomited up eggs today. After a week on softs im adjusting but please tell me there is hope. 6months or a year later, has that sensation of tightness and pressure gone after eating? can you eat normally ? a regular meal albeit a small portion but can you comfortably eat a small meal and feel ok? Can you go the restaurant and enjoy a small meal ? I just feel a little overwhelmed at times, did i do the right thing? I have a lower BMI but have been overweight all of my adult life and my family history in health is really bad i wanted this to help me lose weight with consistency. I can't tell you how many times i would diet to only fall off the wagon again and again. I want to be proactive and make a positive change for the better. I would appreciate any advice and guidance This site has been so informative for me
  9. tryingtobemybest

    Low BMI Gastric Sleeve story

    Im 11 days post-op. Soft food stage. I feel energy is low understandably since im not taking in as much. I feel i am still finding my way with food like what goes down easily and what doesn't . yogurts and banana are good, egg not so much. I don't feel hungry either ! its quite strange. Water and liquid intake is a struggle, i need to work on it.
  10. tryingtobemybest

    Low BMI Gastric Sleeve story

    @@silverthreads I wasn't on any BP meds to begin with, however my sleeve doc thought i could go on some for a couple months to help me post Op. im going to monitor it for a few weeks and see. Thanks for the advice though that really helps. Im hoping it will regulate with more weight loss. But i will definitely keep an eye on it. I feel so much relief coming on here there is a wealth of knowledge and advice here that i truly needed
  11. tryingtobemybest

    Low BMI Gastric Sleeve story

    Thanks so much RNYoYo !!! Yes i was the heavy girl who everyone thought i would be pretty if i lost weight. Im still on my soft foods, figuring out my bearings. im praying the sense of acceptance comes with time. Thank you for valuable advice
  12. tryingtobemybest

    Low BMI Gastric Sleeve story

    Gosh i really needed to read this. I recently had my Gastric Sleeve 9days ago. I have been overweight all of my adult life. Major yoyo dieter, i would lose and regain. my willpower would fail after 4-5 months hence gaining the weight. Fat person in my friends group who were all skinny and still trying to lose weight. It really hits your self confidence. I chose gastric sleeve because im soon heading into my 40's my family has bad health issues and i dont want to be like that. I want to be at a happy place and healthy. my BMI was 32, and i had high blood pressure and cholesterol. I still do, still early days though so i only pray it gets better. i was 196lb ( 5,6) going into surgery. So i took the plunge. I was so worried about my future after this, its permanent and there is no going back. Buyers remorse literally set in the day after "did i do the right thing? my life is changed forever? complications?, i can't enjoy food anymore" everything !!! Im still new finding my way and coming to terms with it. I just hope i have get to a place mentally to accept it. For any of you who have been out a few months. Do you feel a sense of normalcy with your decision? Are you heading in the direction you want ?

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