Hi, those reading this.
I'm nineteen years old (I actually had my birthday a week ago today), and I'm seriously, seriously considering getting the sleeve. I'm not paying for the surgery myself, I'm getting help from both my parents, since my insurance doesn't cover the surgery.
I'm not sure what I weight right now because I've always been scared of the scale, but I know I weight around the 360s, and I'm almost 5'10 (my bmi is in the 50s). Currently, I don't have any physical health problems, such as diabeteies or high cholesterol, but I know I'm very close to having health problems. But I have definitely been affected by my weight psychologically with the way I view myself and how I view other people.
I've always been overweight, just like most of us here, since I was a little (around two years old). I was always bullied in school, which let to me never having many friends, and because I've always been insecure, I've never been able to do anything that put me out of my comfort zone, whether that be helping my mom in the garden or enjoying a roller coaster at Six Flags. And especially with friends, I can never tell when they're being actual friends and good people or just sarcastic and messing with the fat kid, which comes from being insecure about my weight.
I don't know what it's like to walk up a flight of stairs and not be out of breath. I don't know what it's like to walk in a room and not be the biggest person in the room. I went to a all-day festival a few weeks ago, and I had to sit out on two shows because I was too exhausted to walk across the park to the other stages.
So as you can tell, I have some deep-rooted insecurities that come from being obese, and my parents, who are paying for the surgery, are very concerned how this surgery will affect me psychologically. They want me to get the psych evaluation before the surgery (I guess to make sure that I'm ready for this life change), but I don't have or want to pay the money for this evaluation.
My question is, how have your insecurities, such as mine, gotten better, if they have? And what are your stories about your insecurities and overcoming them? I want to feel better about being in my own skin, but I'm afraid that because I've always been significantly overweight, my mindset won't change once I've started to loose the weight. In my case, would it be best to have the psych eval? And if I do, what are my chances of being denied the surgery?
Thank you so much for reading my sob story, and thanks ahead of time for your help and support!
