oh yeah all the time. Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result. I realized I had to have the surgery to do something drastic to keep me from yo- yo dieting. I would lose, then gain, then lose. Keep in mind you have to exericise as well. That is a huge key to your success, but it can be done! Good luck and your are not alone. Get the surgery- even if it means you have to pay for it yourself. Take out a loan, it will be the best investment ever and you will be so much happier...