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Having my surgery on the 18th of May... FREAKING OUT!!!!! food is my coping mechanism, so... Hello binging time! I just keep asking myself how I ever let it get this bad. Why did I let myself go? How did I get to this point? I'm a 20yr old needing bariatric surgery, who was about a 100 pounds lighter 2yrs ago. And I'm also having intense guilt... I did this to myself. Why am I taking the 'easy' way out? I know the weight gain was a consequence of the depression I went through, and still dealing with... And it's not entirely my fault, but gosh the guilt is almost crippling. Anyway. Anyone having theirs around that time too? Wanna be buddies ? Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

I will definitely suggest therapy because I think there is a process you have to mentally through. Some race through it, some are a little slower. So don't compare yourself to others. Don't force or push yourself too much. There is a lot of baggage that we need to shed off as the weight comes off, one of them being esteem issues. And this is something you have to work on. Truth is, you are genuinely an 8. Maybe even a 10 (No, legit. You're hella cute). But you won't believe anybody telling you that, only you accept it. I'm also learning that not demonizing who you were before the surgery helped. 'Yes I was fat. But I was also strong, and joyful, and *insert every good adjective you can think of*' You have to remember good things about who you used to be, so you don't feel like you're deceiving people. Like 'No, I was fucking awesome then. I'm fucking awesome. I will always be fucking awesome! I just happen to take up a little less space and look better in clothes ;)' Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App