wishihadnt

Hi there I'm 26 years old and got lap band surgery about 3 and a half years ago. I hate to come here and be super negative, but I've been holding onto these feelings for a long time and thought I'd see if anyone else is in the same boat. I hate my lap band. Every single day I wish I never got it. I haven't lost any weight, I constantly have acid reflux (even though there is no Fluid in my band any more), food often gets stuck, and I feel so angry that I have this thing inside of me that cost so much money, and has actually made me pretty miserable. I believe I was too young to have the surgery, and not nearly enough of the psychological work was done before they agreed to operate on me. I only had one counselling session, and at the time the thought of losing weight naturally made me extremely positive about the whole experience - I don't think I ever actually considered the full effect this was going to have on me. I'm stuck in this limbo land where my lap band isn't helping me, it's just a massive pain and as I said, I hate it so much. Anyone else out there in the same boat? - allybee

Hi ladies! @SunnyCorner I'm so sorry I never replied to your message last year, I didn't see them until just now. Congratulations on the pregnancy, and for making the brave decision to have the band removed! I'm so glad it's all worked out for you :) I agree 110% with you about investing the money into some other 'self help' work first, hindsight is a wonderful thing but I wish I'd done that. I was way too young, and way too naïve. What you said about not minding your size really resonated with me too -- I have done a lot of work over the last few years and given myself permission to love my body whatever size it is. That has been the most powerful and transformational shift for me! I still have the band in (no fluid though) and manage to ignore it most of the time, however every now and then food gets stuck. I am trying really hard to not hate this thing inside of me, and to accept it as it is for now, until the time comes when I can afford to have it removed. Having less anxiety about it has seemed to help with food getting stuck... I still take a pill for reflux every day. @Suffolkgirl19 - I am so sorry you are going through this, I know exactly how it feels and am sending lots of love your way! It is such a frustrating feeling. I guess all I can say (from my experience) is that it got a little better for me (I'm 8 years down the track now), but I still want it removed. I'm so glad there are other people out there who have had a similar experience, it definitely helps me be a little kinder to myself and feel not so alone! xxx