LittleDogLover

Please move my post if I am not in the right place. I had gastric bypass in 8/2012. I fasted to a weight of 275 and in the next three months I dropped to 246. I lost my health insurance at that time and couldn't go to the doc anymore. I never lost anymore after the 246. I stayed there until the weight started quickly come back on. I never felt like I had restriction and I ate like I didn't. I ate a lot of slider foods. (My Father also died the same year and I was in another state isolated from my family. I should also tell you that I hurt my back in 2009 and I had trouble walking - one of the reasons I had the surgery) There's so much to believe that there was something wrong with my surgery (I was hungry when I woke from surgery and ate the whole Clear liquids platter and I never felt much restriction at all.) I feel so much shame about what I keep thinking as my failure to adhere to the "rules." On top of that I started having trouble with alcohol in 2013 and I am an alcoholic now, currently seeking treatment. I don't like to regret things but I always think that I would have done better with the sleeve but if the problem is really psychological with me, it wouldn't have mattered. Now I finally have insurance and I can seek an opinion on the surgery and meet with a dietician. I will not be pursuing a revision or other procedure unless I have at least a year of sobriety. Thank you for reading.

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This is a great topic. I am someone who gastric bypass didn't help lose more than less than 40 pounds. When I was in high school I weighed about 130. I thought I was "so fat" and I wore two bras to squish my ladylike breasts. I'm much heavier now and I still feel the same way about my body so I know that it is entirely psychological for me. (probably body dysmorphic disorder.) I follow the body positive movement on facebook and I love all these smart and vivacious women. I have tried so hard to change my perception of heavy bodies as being unattractive. (Mostly my own.) I find this dichotomy so stressful on me. I want to hurrah for body acceptance but find myself still feeling the same societal burden on my fat self.

My problems are not exactly the same as yours but you are experiencing some of the remorse I feel. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I just want to send you a ((hug)) through the puter and only hope that with time and treatment there will be some kind of happy medium for you! If not a complete healing of some sort. I deal with a lot of chronic pain (back pain) and I can understand how it feels so unfair that we go through this and have to deal with so much pain and negative aftermath when we expected the best. xxoo Jamie