Jenny, keep your chin up! You're doing the right thing and by simply seeing a surgeon you have taken a step in the right direction. I am 6 days post-op as of today. I won't tell you that the road ahead of you with surgery is going to be easy, because it won't be, but it will definitely be worth it! Like you, I've struggled with my weight since high school. I just got tired of the ups and downs on the scale and knew that I needed a more permanent fix and most definitely guidance. You can do this! People will never understand what you are going through unless they have gone through it themselves. It's one thing to be an empathetic person, but unless someone has had the same experiences as you and has been on the same emotional roller coaster because of their weight, then they truly can't relate.
So, keep doing what you're doing!