You took the first step and should be VERY proud of yourself!
I agree with what others have stated...everything you are feeling is NORMAL so relax. Think instead of the negative think about the joy to come not only for yourself, but those precious gifts from God. Our children often suffer from the choices we make, we are human. You have taken steps and made choices in the right direction.
My ex husband had quadruple bypass surgery when he was about your age. He is back up to his old weight. Dr told him he needs another surgery, he says no...he is making a choice. Our 22 year old daughters do not have a relationship with him, but our 9 year old son does.
I have a cousin and sister in law who has had the surgery and they are doing great...they work hard to keep the weight off. Think of this as a new life style that you can pass on to your children. Putting it into perspective...is a burger and fries worth your children growing up without you...I think not. Prayers...keep us updated.
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