DirtyyMelodies

Hi guys. Not feeling so great tonight. I've been stoked for the past week, as I got my surgery date, and it's coming up fast. I realize how incredibly lucky I am to have such an opportunity and to be able to have a fresh start at such a young age (I'm 25), which is also why I don't understand why I can't seem to stick with a simple pre-op diet. I'm incredibly frustrated by my behavior. My boyfriend of 5 years broke up with me 2-3 days ago, and I've been fighting binge urges pretty much non-stop since then. Sometimes I manage to overcome them, but carbs have always been my weakness when it comes to bingeing, and since yesterday, I've been eating crap. I still have about 7-9 pounds to lose before my surgery. I'm terrified that I won't be able to change my behavior in the future and that I'll gain every pound back and more, thus wasting the 10K$ loan I took for this. I just want to cry right now. So frustrating.

People really weren't kidding when they said pre-op sucked! Man oh man... I've been really good for the past three days, and today I started feeling extremely weak and dizzy -- to the point I chose to stay home because I didn't feel safe driving my car. Gonna write an e-mail to my NUT tonight. I feel like I may be lacking electrolytes. Can't wait to get sleeved so the hunger pains go away!

That's too bad! Sorry to hear! Good luck on the 7 days of liquids! It's not easy, but it'll be worth it! We gotta hang in there!

Good luck on the liquid diet! And your surgery date is coming up soon, you must be excited! How do you feel? Definitely keep me posted, I'd love to know how it went!

Hahaha! If only it was that easy to lose actual weight, I'd be 10K$ richer! Thanks for the encouragement. I'm looking forward to surgery! I'm just scared of failing because I've failed everytime before, no matter how genuinely motivated I was. All the positivity I'm reading on this forum is kind of helping overcome the self-doubt, though!

Gotta say, I'm looking forward to being able to "upgrade" my partner to someone with the same mindset as mine. With that being said, I hope you're wrong and that your husband will be understanding about the whole thing.

Getting professional mental health is part of the plan! I realize that it's not a physical issue, but rather behavioural; the surgery will be a helpful tool, but I need to change my way of thinking to prevent relapsing (which terrifies me).

That's actually really encouraging to hear! Thanks!!

Thanks you guys! Tomorrow, my surgery date will officially be two weeks away. I'm going to start the whole pre-op diet thing from scratch today. I can do this. I might be back to square one on a weight loss standpoint, but I'm sure if I walk everyday and follow the diet plan, I can lose 12lbs in two weeks. Let's do this!

Thank you for the kind words, guys! @@WLSResources/ClothingExch, I wasn't offended by your previous post, don't worry! I totally get what you're saying. And you know what? You're right. I wasn't happy in that relationship either, in the end. Ruining my pre-op efforts because of it is just silly. I need to focus on the upside of this upcoming journey. I've always been the kind of person to be quite pessimistic when it came to certain things; I thought that it was better to be agreably surprised rather than disappointed. Bad mindset to have, isn't it? I need to start grabbing the bull by the horns and take over control.

You're adorable. Reading your post made me smile. Thank you. <3

Live and learn, I guess. Not proud, but I'll know better now. Sent from my iPhone using the BariatricPal App

Had a less than stellar day today. Discovered that the brand of Multivitamins I picked made me extremely nauseous. Confirmed this last night when I took a double dose (forgot to take them at lunch) and spent the night up, and an hour hugging the toilet bowl later on. Managed to get a bit of rest, tried to play it safe and only drank my shakes for breakfast/lunch. Had a fight with my now ex, which triggered bingeing urges. I tried to fight them for a good hour-hour and a half, ended up giving in and eating a huge poutine. I'm very disappointed in myself. I need to start working on those urges, I can't afford those anymore. I need to find another way to vent my emotions when I'm upset. Tomorrow is a new day. I'll do better. I promise.

I wish I could've done Optifast! I'm stuck doing something similar to Ideal Protein. Blah.

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Right? I was surprised too. I never expected that from him; kinda disappointing. But hey, it's fine. I love the idea of an entirely clean slate to start from. At first I was a bit mad that he waited until I took a 10K$ loan before ditching me, but now I realize that I would've postponed the surgery indefinitely otherwise. I'm switching my life around. Gonna lose the weight, learn to be by myself and relax, for a while. It'll do me good.

Thanks for the heads up. We definitely did the right thing when we decided not to buy the tour tickets right away, then. I'll wait til then and see how I feel.

My boyfriend of 5 years just broke up with me. Via Facebook chat. I'm a bit weirded out. I don't really feel anything. I think I didn't want to admit it to myself, but I secretely wanted the same thing. The whole thing just left me indifferent. Like "Oh, ok. Cool. We'll do that, then". Honestly, I think it's really for the best. I read so much about how many people get divorced after WLS because it changes you so much; I think a clean slate is what I need. I'll be going through a huge transition soon, one of the biggest, most drastic changes in my life. Being by myself to figure out who I really am will be beneficial. I'm a bit sad to finish this chapter of my life, but I'm happy to begin the new one. It's going to be so refreshing, and so much better. I'm ready.

Today was busy! I shopped for flight tickets, and after HOURS of research, I managed to find some that fitted all my criteria, dates and budget. I'll be leaving two days earlier than planned, so we can enjoy the nice Baja California weather a bit longer. I also arranged that my mom and I (she'll be accompanying me) have a day to explore San Diego before we fly back. We'll probably just do a hop-on hop-off bus tour, nothing too intense or crazy. A little walking will be good for me, too. I went to the bank to wire my deposit and balance for the surgery. Got my receipts, it's done! All paid for. Spoke with the nutritionnist on the phone. He said to start the pre-op today. I already had had quite a bit of carbs today, so I decided to officially start tomorrow. I sorta know what to expect, I've done Ideal Protein in the past, and it's very similar to the pre-op guidelines they gave me. I also went to the GNC near my house (supplement store) and bought Vitamins, Protein powder and other supplements OCC advised me to get. That stuff is so expensive! It's insane! But it's for a good cause, right? I feel like the pre-op diet is going to be LONG (already dreading the liquid post-op!). But I'm really excited to finally get sleeved. D-Day can't get here soon enough.

I'm in Quebec, sadly. Our waiting list (IF you get approved) is currently 5-10 years. Ain't nobody got time fo that!

Awesome! Congrats to you too! I looked into getting mine done in Canada as well, but it was about double the price, and the bariatric surgeon in my area had really shitty reviews. Toronto must definitely have a lot more choice!