bandfan1

Wow, you have been through a lot. You should call the doc's office and ask if they can give you a break on the fill. Explain your situation and they may just let you do it for $100. Since you paid out of pocket, you probably paid more anyway!!! Definitely CALL them!!!! If you don't ask, then you'll never know.

Your health is more important now than ever!! Take care of yourself..... It may increase the risk of band slippage and then you will be in a worse predicament....

When you wake up in the morning, try to think of everything that you are grateful for. If you start your day this way it will give you the power and the strength to face the day with a positive attitude. Don't focus on your hardships (I know it will be hard to do), focus on your kids and yourself....

Keep your chin up!!!!

Don't be so hard on yourself. If you didn't get the band, you might be dead soon. Obesity carries so many other health risks. You should be proud of yourself for deciding to take care of your weight issue. Your kids were behind you 100%, so stay united with them and be as successful as you can on your journey.....

You can't look back because you can't change the past. You need to focus forward and strategize about what your next move should be. If you need to get another job, then focus on that. Why not consider one of the network marketing companies out there? You can't make better money working in a department store.

Feeling ashamed is not going to help you. You need to hold your head up high and take control. I am a big fan of "The Secret". Basically it is all about the law of attraction. "What you think about, you bring about". Keep your energy positive and positive things will come back to you. If you keep thinking about being in debt, you will always be in debt!!!

Good luck!!