alv2008

I had to Google "anorexic" because I didn't even know how to spell it...clearly it has never been part of my normal vocabulary like fat, obese, overweight, etc. I was banded on Feb. 1, 2008 and to date I have lost 45 lbs. It hasn't been too terribly hard, but now that I have really good restriction I BARELY eat. Barely. I'm not even hungry. I think about food and I think about the foods that I can't eat, but then I think about the 45 lbs. I have lost and I don't want those foods...or really any food for that matter. I fear that I've created a monster by losing weight and feeling better. Just this past week I was able to put on a pair of jeans that I haven't worn in three years. They aren't even in style anymore but I kept them because I knew that one day I would be able to wear them again...so I cried like a little girl when they slipped on and buttoned up with no effort, pulling or squeezing. I digress....I have started to not want to eat because I want to lose more weight and I know that's not the right way to do it so I eat a little here and there throughout the day. I'm not ususally hungry at all in the morning and my band feels really tight, I have Soup for lunch, maybe a 100 calorie popcorn in the afternoon and soup for dinner and I'm fine. Am I the only one? I feel superior to food now and I don't miss it. I no longer plan my day around what I am going to eat or where or when. I just go about my day and if I'm a little hungry I'll have something. It's crazy....or am I crazy?

I know how you feel. My last fill was at the end of April and I noticed a couple of weeks ago that I was able to eat more than I have been able to in a long time. I went in for a fill last week and everything seemed to be fine at first, but yesterday I almost had to throw up the Water I was drinking. I had a hard time getting tomato Soup down too! I tell people all the time that what I am able to eat depends on the day. Some days I can eat sushi (with the rice!) no problem and then other days I can barely get pudding down. I don't get it. I am debating on whether or not I need to go in and get some of my fill taken out or just wait it out. I'm sure that in a few days it will loosen up a bit. This isn't really a solution to your question, but I know how it feels. I just wish someone could explain why it works this way.

I don't know if this is normal, but it seems like what I can eat varies from day to day. I am currently at 5.5 cc's of a 10 cc band and I'm restricted. I mean, it's really at a good place right now and I've lost 45 lbs since Feb. 1. I find that I can eat various things depending on the day. I usually can eat sashimi no problem, but Saturday I got one piece of tuna down (no rice) and had to book it to the bathroom. I ended up throwing up three times from ONE piece of tuna. This has never been an issue. Yesterday I tried to eat some vegetable soup for lunch and I could barely get any of it down. Then last night I was able to eat an entire lean cuisine pasta meal. What's the deal? I feel like my band has a mind of it's own and chooses what it will and will not let me eat from day to day. Has anyone else experienced this picky band syndrome?

I had to Google "anorexic" because I didn't even know how to spell it...clearly it has never been part of my normal vocabulary like fat, obese, overweight, etc. I was banded on Feb. 1, 2008 and to date I have lost 45 lbs. It hasn't been too terribly hard, but now that I have really good restriction I BARELY eat. Barely. I'm not even hungry. I think about food and I think about the foods that I can't eat, but then I think about the 45 lbs. I have lost and I don't want those foods...or really any food for that matter. I fear that I've created a monster by losing weight and feeling better. Just this past week I was able to put on a pair of jeans that I haven't worn in three years. They aren't even in style anymore but I kept them because I knew that one day I would be able to wear them again...so I cried like a little girl when they slipped on and buttoned up with no effort, pulling or squeezing. I digress....I have started to not want to eat because I want to lose more weight and I know that's not the right way to do it so I eat a little here and there throughout the day. I'm not ususally hungry at all in the morning and my band feels really tight, I have Soup for lunch, maybe a 100 calorie popcorn in the afternoon and soup for dinner and I'm fine. Am I the only one? I feel superior to food now and I don't miss it. I no longer plan my day around what I am going to eat or where or when. I just go about my day and if I'm a little hungry I'll have something. It's crazy....or am I crazy?

I can eat solid foods and I've only PB'd once since getting banded. I eat the soup because it helps me get through the mental aspect of eating and being full. If I can see the bottom of my soup bowl, then I don't feel like I'm depriving myself as opposed to seeing food on my plate go to waste.

I've used a similar response to being called fat..... I may be fat, but I can lose weight....you'll always be an a$$hole (insert terrible character trait). I've had people make comments about my weight for no reason. I was walking to my car in a parking lot and some guys were yelling things like, "Lard a$$", etc. I don't mind when people I know make comments about my weight. It's the strangers that I've never spoken to, never met before and will probably never see again who get to me because I think that they are seeing me as the rest of the world full of strangers sees me. Friends and family look past your outside and love you for who you are, not what you are. In my mind, the insults from the strangers hurt more because I feel like they are telling me the truth because why would they need to sugarcoat anything to protect my feelings. Does that make sense?

My brother and my dad always used to tell me that I would be so much prettier if I just lost weight. I used to really let it get to me and it would depress me for days....then I decided to have weight loss surgery and stuck them with the bill. It doesn't make it right, but I secretly enjoyed watching them fork over thousands of dollars. Fortunately, I realize that I'm pretty regardless and my ultimate goal is to be able to wear some small, expensive jeans, run a marathon and live longer because I'm healthy.

I was banded on February 1 in Houston, TX by Dr. Spivak (who is so wonderful). The operation was a piece of cake and I was back to work in no time. The first week after surgery was a snap. I wasn't hungry, barely ate and, in total, I lost 16 lbs. Now I'm almost approaching two weeks and I feel hungry like I did before the surgery. I haven't gained back any of the weight (I know this because now I'm obsessed with the scale...BAD!), but I feel like I'm eating a lot. I know in comparison to what I was eating before I was banded that it's not that bad, but I'm just freaking out. I go in for my first fill on the 28th and I can't wait for more restriction. Is it normal to be able to eat so much before your first fill? I'm not eating crap, (no burgers or fast food or anything) just bigger portions of the soft food. Will I notice a big difference in the restriction when I get filled? I would appreciate the info! Thanks!