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Congrats!!!! YEAH on running the 5K!! YOU ROCK!!! =) I am sorry to hear about his upcoming surgery. I am still sending every positive vibe I have in my body. Hang in there. Hopefully it will be benign and they can remove it all!

Congrats on the 5K Dee.... looks like you had fun. I am doing a 5K for breast cancer on the 26th. Hope I will look as non sweaty as you two!!! lol

Hi ladies.... I am feeling MUCH much better this morning. I think I just needed to vent. I had my first work conflict since my promotion and I think it got to me more than I realized. (Someone who was a friend ran to my boss and said I was spreading rumors about him and trying to drive a wedge between him and another co-worker.. completely untrue and luckily my supervisor knew it... but it still hurts to see people who were friends suddenly gun for you because they are upset you got a promotion they also we going for.) So I guess I need to watch my back more. I went out to dinner with hubby last night and then returned to soak in the spa with him and hang out by the fire. It was nice & relaxing. It is FINALLY cooling down a bit here and is supposed to drop down into the 80's this weekend. YEAH! So we threw open all the windows and the fresh air helped clear my head. As for my band and a possible leak. The possibility is still on the back of my mind. I am going to wait it out a bit and see how things go this next week. I just had an upper GI done and everything was fine... but that was before my last 2 fills. I don't think it is good for my body to get poked again and have my fill removed and put in again. That would make 3 times in as many weeks. ??? Nurses??? What do you think? Too much poking and inflating and deflating ??? Or shouldn't make a difference? Yesterday I did have a glimpse of some restriction again. I was only able to eat half a muffin for breakfast, 1/3 of a Carl's hamburger for lunch, and a house salad with 3oz of steak at dinner. I think it has been so long since I "pigged" out pre-band, that my brain now looks at piging out as eating 4 taco's from Taco Bell... when that would have been less than a normal portion for me pre-band. Still not good, but world's away from before. Thank you everyone for your support. Means a ton. On that note... I weighed in at 298 this morning! :lost1lbs: FIRST TIME UNDER 299 in over a month and a half! WOOT! He didn't like anything that would manipulate a poke in... and then right out. He thinks it risks the needle tip getting damaged using the stopcock which in turns poses risk to the port. ??? He felt it was just safer to re-poke than to keep drawing in and out with the needle sitting in the port the whole time as you adjust. Oh good luck missy! I hope it works out for you!! I think I will join your anti-d club. Thanks for the reminder. Taking mine now. :smile2: Damn B&J... do they not know the pain and pleasure they cause us all??? I am sorry they got to you too. I was trying to spare you.. yeah that was it. :crying: I don't mind looking younger... just means I will stay hotter longer. Bwahahahaaa. :laugh: And thanks for the support girly... I love ya too. I am going to Milwaukee in a few weeks to visit friends and family. My mom ironically IS going to visit my aunt that weekend in Bettendorf.... but she isn't taking me. Wah! Awww Dee I am so sorry. I totally know how that feels. I think we all do. And it sucks. We all want people to see US... not our fat. :huggie: Welcome back girlie!!! Hope you can get your band back on track this week with your office visit with Tom. Sounds like you have been busy busy!! If they are accusing you of flirting with the coach they are just jealous. I swear... they don't like you when you are fat, they don't like you when you are skinny, we just can't win! Women can be so spiteful and petty. :huggie: I wish I could put all that pretty smelling stuff in my spa... ahhh the downfall of a spa vs a stand alone hottub. And I pretty much know I need to be on my anit-D's for life, was told that by several Dr's. My depression is pretty severe and not situational. If only I could get my act together! :myscared:

Tough..tough situation. CIT sounds like a great resource!! Sounds like you have been down this path with him before. I am so sorry you find yourself here again. Hang in there. Keep us updated. I have to sign off now... but if you need to chat you can call me anytime. ((hugs)) My phone number is on the list. Please update when you hear something!

I am not sure what CIT stands for. Our agency doesn't have a special team to respond to these kinds of situations. I can imagine that it was a horribly frightful experience to see guns drawn on your son. It is a horrible situation on both ends. Officers KNOW he is sick, but that doesn't diminish the danger he poses to them. Well I am assuming they knew in that situation?? If you do decide to call... at least you can give them the heads up that he is Schizophrenic, and give them the information they need. If they go in with that knowledge, hopefully they can approach him differently than if they were to just run into him on the street and not know his history and just assume he is hyped up on something. Does he have access to weapons? Oh what a complicated situation. :biggrin: I feel for you.

I know going on and off them is probably not a good thing. It is never intentional. I forget to take it one day, and then the next, and then before I know it a month has gone by. :biggrin: Of course it is easy to forget when I am feeling good. And easy to remember during times like right now where I frustrate easily and get pretty down. I wish my hubby could just give me a shot when I sleep... then I wouldn't have to remember and he could get a little payback for the pain I probably am causing him! :thumbup:

Tough spot to be in. My thoughts on that are, HE is the one that put you in this situation by saying the things he said. It isn't fair. It is a damned if you do and damned if you don't situation... except the damned if you don't is too serious to ignore. USUALLY if it is a mental health issue with a suicidal subject, law enforcement CAN overlook certain things. I know my agency would transport to get him the help he needs instead of trying to rack up drug charges. Unless of course they do find him, he denies being suicidal, and gives officers a hard time... then they may very well arrest him for drugs, or whatever else he may have pending. Personally... if it were someone I loved, and I hadn't heard from him in a day after threats were made, I would call. I would rather have them in jail and alive than dead somewhere because I afraid they would get arrested or mad at me. I know that is put simply, and it is more complicated than that. I have put my family in that situation before. Fortunately never to the extent where law enforcement has had to intervene... if it got to that point, I would be upset... but then when I got my shit in order and myself in check I would realize it was MY actions that caused that outcome. I was the one that forced them into making that call. Best of luck on what you decide. I am worried with you. I can't imagine how you feel. I think I can probably relate more with your son right now. ((SOME MORE GIANT HUGS))

Ok... now that I am caught up. I have had a REALLY crappy week. First things first, weigh in: Lost 0 Gained 0 ....which is a miracle considering I bailed on the gym all week, at like crap, and caved to the B&J Cake Batter ice cream. :cake: I am seriously worried I may have a leak in my band. After having only 4cc pulled out of my band last week (one week after I was supposed to have 6cc) I again have NO restriction. I am supposed to have almost 7cc's in my band right now and just do not think that is the case. I am contemplating going in again this week to have him extract the fluid to see how much is in there. He had to poke me about 3 times last week before he hit my port. I asked him bout the stopcock and he doesn't use one because of potential risk to the port. His explanation made perfect sense. So I do think he is extra cautious... and I want to believe that I am just over reacting but I keep hearing that clicking sound in my head... of the needle rubbing over the port as he tries to find the right spot... and can't help but wonder if something got jabbed. ARGH. I am just so frustrated right now. I feel like I haven't had this freaking surgery! I can eat anything and everything. I just need a mental break from all of this. Financially I am so in a hole from this I am starting to wonder if it was worth it. This has been one MF'ing long ASS DIET. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! :biggrin: :thumbup: :thumbup: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :w00t: :present: :present: :present: :present: :party: :cake: :cake: :cake: :cake: I need to find a support group or something. I feel so alone right now. :cake: I am sorry for my stupid vent. Everyone has got so much going on, I know my issues are petty... but it is how I am feeling right now and I have no where else to go to complain or vent about this. I am thinking I may need to go back on my meds. I somehow went astray again on my anti deppresants and think perhaps it has caught up with me. :cake:

I love you. Can I marry you? bwahahaha. You are too sweet!! I am 31 going on 32 next month. I love hot tubs... I have one myself attached to my pool.... just meant they are yucky with healing surgery wounds. lol. And hell yeah I will join you next time I am up there! :biggrin: I know.... DA BOMB. Love um! Glad you enjoyed it! I am so glad you have been able to get the help for your daughter that she needs. Take care of your grandson!!! Things will be ok... as a former foster momma... you know what needs to be done. (((hugs))) I am glad you had such a good visit!! does he have info online? I have the worst stomach and arms ever (bet my arms would make his jaw go slack too) and would love to see some photos. I hadn't even THOUGHT of looking into PS already. Thought it would be waaaay too soon. If I could get insurance to cover some procedures I would be THRILLED but they have a strict opt out policy fo WLS and excess skin removal. *sigh* I am so sorry sweetie. My thoughts are with your family. (((GIANT HUGS))) I have been there. I know how you are feeling. If you need to talk call me or PM me. Oh sweetie I am so sorry your neighbors are poo poo heads. I hope the foster home plan works and you can keep all your babies with you. Hang in there. I know it is stressful right now. Just keep loving on them and it will make you feel better. :thumbup: I am glad you got patched up. Hopefully the pain will subside some now! lol. Toe fractures SUCK. I am sending positive thoughts your way. Have you contacted the authorities? They can send out an ATL (atempt to locate). More eyes out looking for him. Also if his phone is on, they can get his cell company to track the emergency GPS. We located a suicidal subject that way at my old agency and they were able to find him before it was too late. (In that sitation we knew he had taken something) As someone that has suffered major depression and suicidal ideaologies... I am hoping that he is just in a bad place and throwing out empty threats again. Please update us when you hear more. Keep trying to call and reach him. When I was in that place all I wanted was for someone to talk to me. (((GIANT HUGS)))

Hot tubs are bacteria ponds. YUCKY. Stay out for sure for AT LEAST 4 weeks. Dr K told me one month for swimming and said hot tubs were a big no no.

Oh my word! Are you flipping serious? Wow. I almost feel bad for your mom. She is obviously desperate and grasping at straws to keep her child home and safe. In her mind I am sure it is logical to do what she did. Who are you talking to?? sorry without a quote I am clueless. :tt1:

Ok that is just GROSS! BLECH. Speaking of speaking of B&J... saw they now make Cake Batter. :drool: Swirled with chocolate frosting. Oh I wanted to buy it soooo bad. But hubby was behind me yapping about goals and shit, blah blah blah, so I didn't cave. ha ha. He has lost 13 pounds since starting the gym with me. I was only 6 pounds away from weighing less than him and then he does this. Ha ha! Bastard. AWESOME WTG! PUFF MAMA~ Put me down for -1. I am back into twoterville. Woot! (also back where I started 2 weeks ago... heh. )

Aww thanks sweetums! =) I think this last fill may be my first real experience with restriction. Tonight I went out for my sisters birthday and had one popper and 3/4 of a slice of pizza (I know.. baaad food but it was a birthday party) and I was done done done. Could not eat another bite. *crossing fingers* I may finally be at my sweet spot. Too early to tell. I LOVE the Vivanno! I always get the chocolate banana one. So I can't speak for the orange mango banana one. It is expensive though but works in a pinch. Doesn't taste chalky to me at all. It has... • one whole banana, • a proprietary whey protein and fiber powder, • choice of milk, • and ice •16 grams of protein, • 5 grams of fiber • 270 calories or less • no artificial colors, artificial sweeteners or high fructose corn syrup Ha ha... how bout the new one now. Keeping y'all on your toes. hehehe. I just had some photos taken with the hubb... will attach a few. I can REALLY se my weighloss in my face. Body still sucks, but my face is darn cute! haha. YEAH!! WTG girly. So proud of you. Hope you love/hate your trainer as much as I love hate mine. I just worked out with her again this morning. Wheeew she works me. I am going to the gym more and more though cuz she skeeers me. HAhahahaa. Good luck! sounds like a GREAT plan! You can do it!!! It is easier to stick to it and not cheat when you know it is essential for a successful surgery to follow thru and do it right. I did my pre-op for a month and lost 20 pounds! Take a deep breath!!! It is SO NORMAL to freak out!! My whole week before surgery I majorally freaked out! I was so close to saying forget it, but he had my $$$ ha ha ha. Seriously though, you will be so glad you did it. As for the soap, he told me not to worry bout it when i asked him. So I just showered like normal. Well maybe I still have enough fat protecting my port, but mine is a good inch or two below my bra line. They hang down near it (boo for saggy boobs) but the bra does run thankfully.

So my Dr charged me for another fill. I am pissed about it... but what can I do. When he pulled out my saline I had only 4cc's. ONE CC LESS than I went in with last week. Grrr. No wonder I had no restriction. I think he took out more than he realized after the overfill??? So now I am a "smidge under" 7CC's... which was the amount that I couldn't swallow water last week. *sigh* I HATE this guessing game with fills. It took me over an hour to drink a Vivanno from Starbucks. I definitely have restriction. A small bit of gurgling with liquids, but at least they are going down. I guess time will tell. I am freaked about trying to eat anything! Definitely going to take it slow. On a side note, I have upped my personal trainer sessions to twice a week. I am not going to participate in the BFL challenge. I am having a hard enough time right now sticking to my PT goals, and figuring out my fill level. Sorry again for the drive-by. I cannot keep up if I am not here everyday.

Sorry ladies driveby... hope everyone is well. My new position at work keeps me busy with more paperwork. Yeah. Less time for puttering around on the PC. Boo! Munch and Jaime... so nice to SEE you ladies! =) Munch... awesome difference missy. Woot! WTG!!! I am -5 for the weigh-in this week. Woot! Exactly 300. Stupid twoterville keeps playing with me. Grrrr. I scheduled another fill for next week so he can re-add some of what he withdrew after I couldn't swallow water. Hoping he will not charge me the full $150 for the re-fill.

My aunt & uncle live in Bettendorf. I would never choose to live there. Sooozville. :wink2: Brandy ((HUGS)) hang in there. We are all pulling for you guys. I guess I missed the first day of BFL. I get so behind on this thread. lol. I am not sure I can handle it right now, but I will try best I can. Count me in. I might have a lot of questions. :crying:

Well ladies I had my 4th fill today. First one without fluoro... and it was a bit rough. First off I HATE laying down to get filled. Sucky. Second he had to poke me twice to find the port, then said it was tilted a bit. *shrug* Not sure if it was because I was laying down or not, but never had a problem with my other fills. So he gave me 2cc's. He was willing to give me 3cc's... but I felt that would be way too much since I was already at 5cc in my AP standard. Also I still feel a teensy bit of restriction when eating chicken or salmon... so I said I was ok with 2cc... would rather be a bit loose than too tight. So I sit up. Drink a bit of water and it goes down slow. He counts how long it is from when I feel it, to when it goes through and says it should be good. YIKES. I DO NOT like that guess work. I want my fluoro back. Waaaah! So I left and went on my merry way. I stopped by hubby's work to say hi and STILL felt the water sitting in my chest. I was gurgling, burping, and having all kinds of fun with the water refluxing up. I had 2 SMALL sips and couldn't handle it. Oye. So I called the office and headed back. He took back out 1cc and I had immediate relief. I drank more water and he said it was now going through at a very light restriction pace, but I was too nervous to add any back in right then. So I am now at 6cc. I am able to gulp water again! Yeah. I will be on mushies tomorrow so it may be a day or two until I figure out my current restriction level. I am thinking I am now too loose again... but that is WAY better than pain with water. I still really like my new Dr... he handled it well I felt. I just am NOT comfortable about having fills without fluoro. I was afraid this would happen and it did. *sigh* Has anyone else had this problem? I am bummed because like I said I really like Dr Monash and want to stay local. Does it get easier as time goes on. I am not really "in tune" with my pouch and had a hard time judging how water was passing... is this my fault??? Oh and he didn't use a cock block... stop cock??? So I would have had to get poked again had I wanted another .25cc or .5cc added back in... another reason why I said I will see how this level goes.

I am going to check out BFL site tonight. It has been a hectic week for me. I think I am in on this challenge. =) Will post for sure one way or the other later. Brandy... I hope it is nothing!! Hang in there girly. Awesome! Save money on new ones... go comando. Bwahahaha. Ok girl, you just hopped aboard the CRAZY train with this one. :cool2: lol! Thanks so much for all the info!!! sounding like something I definitly want in on. My first fill was about 6 weeks post op (2/29 2cc's). My second fill was 6 weeks after that (3/16 2cc's). Third fill was a bit longer at almost 4 moths later (7/7 1cc) but I had gallbladder complications that they weren't positive the source for awhile. I just had my 4th fill today (9/19 1cc). So no... you do not need them every few weeks. Everyone is different however, and you will have to see how you feel as you go. I had a hard time scheduling fills with my follow up surgeon because it was an all day ordeal due to the long frive, and he only did them a few times a month. Now my follow up surgeon is local and a lot easier to get in for fills. My thoughts are with your hubby. I hope that everything goes well and he gets the all clear on the big "c". Aww man. bummer. Please keep us updated on your GTT results. :hug: I would press the issue. It is your health. You know how YOU feel. Not to compare my gallbaldder experience with cancer... but I will... I kept getting the brush off from my PCP about my pain. I kept persisting, finally changed PCP's, and finally got my answer. If I listened to her, I would still be having attacks right now with no answer. Oh I am sorry, with her answer... "It's just reflux." Pffft. PRESS THE ISSUE.

Had my first workout with Cynthia this morning. I hate her. :embaressed_smile: ha ha. I love her too. She kicked my butt.:svengo:I felt close to tossing my Cookies but I hung on. I am going to have to hit the gym HARD this week if I expect to keep up with her next Monday. She gave me homework!! Love it! Think this is the second best thing I have done for myself besides getting banded. :cool2:

She's gorgeous!!! Takes after her momma! =) Lol.... LOVE it! Looks YUMMY! All thr fruit on the bottom. Yummmm. Ok I will check it out. Thanks. My PT just kicked my butt this morning... not sure if I can handle a whole new eating plan on top of all the homework she is assigning! ha ha. I am very excited for you. My last week before surgery I was a mess. Second guessing myself, freaking out over the cost, possible complications, etc. Seems so long ago!!! And what wasted energy!! I couldn't be happier with my band!!! You will do great! AWESOME!!! WTG!!!! Woot woot!! :embaressed_smile:

Yes I am... I need something to get me going again! What does it entail???

CONGRATS Cassy!

:smile: Figures it is something boring and medical. hehehe. Did I miss this? What is the B4L??? I have sleep apnea and have a CPAP as well. I actually have not used it since my surgery... although I should get back into the habit. Might help me get better sleep. I am sleepy a lot lately and have been blaming it on changing shifts. Probably the apnea still. Should change mine to a :ohmy: or or or or :smile: or :eek: def not a :laugh: :wink:

Ok ladies. My weigh in. I am owning up to it. I am up 5 pounds. :thumbup: Technically I have been bobbing up and down 4-5 pounds the last 2 weeks, but I usually bobbed to the lower end more often. *sigh* I am really bummed. So instead of boo hoo hoo'ing. I am grabbing the bull by the horns and fixing what needs to be fixed. I cleaned out the fridge, stocked up on fruits & proteins, and signed up for 20 sessions with Cynthia, the personal trainer at my gym. I am GOING to make my Halloween goal. I want to fly home and be able to tell everyone I am 100 pounds lighter. So at this point, that means I now have 20 pounds to lose instead of 15. Obviously the gallbladder surgery tripped me up a bit. Laying around recovering made it easy to fall out of workout habits. But it is not entirely to blame. My fill level is too lose and I have been taking advantage of that. That is ALL on me. I have a fill sheduled in 5 days... and I cannot WAIT! I need my band now more than ever. I will scream if I am not down next week. So yeah. I suck this week. I refuse to change my ticker. :thumbup: And I type all this as I eat some Haagen Dazs Banana Split ice cream a co-worker just scooped out for me. *sigh*

Hang in there. I had the same problem. No one in Tucson would look at me. I found one in Phoenix but they wanted $500 to join the practice and fills were like $175 a piece. I eventually went to Dr Berger in Flagstaff (4 hour one way) for fills under Fluoro for $200. I loved him, loved have fills under Fluoro. Well when my gallbladder went wonky... and I got a new PCP (who is banded... ROCKS) he said that was ridiculous and gave me several names of Dr who should be able to fill me. Said if they still said no HE would call them personally. I went to Dr Monash for my gallbladder surgery and he said he would absolutely do my fills. So now I have a 20 minute drive cross town and they are only $100. Not under fluoro... but I will live. ha ha. So you never know. I call Dr Monash before when he was affiliated with another Dr and they flat out said no. Now that he is on his own, I think he is more open to the practice. He just wanted me to have the upper GI done to see positioning and I am good to go. First fill scheduled for the 17th with him. Keep calling. Keep checking. It will work out! $800 is absurd! $300 is absurd! Be careful of fill centers... they make me nervous! Wow!!! That is absurd! I would drop him like a hot potato. No going back. You already gave him a chance. Time to find someone else in my opinion. That sounded like a horrible experience. STOPCOCK??? What the hell is that??? I almost spewed water all over my monitor! ha ha. AWESOME congrats missy!!! How inspiring!