Jeanette1246

I am still having a hard time with eating. It's getting much better, but often feels like things are getting stuck. Constipation sometimes, no real gas usually. Down 40 pounds so far. The last two weeks the number on the scale have stayed the same, but my clothes are really starting to fit differently! I am still having a hard time with eating. It's getting much better, but often feels like things are getting stuck. Constipation sometimes, no real gas usually. Down 40 pounds so far. The last two weeks the number on the scale have stayed the same, but my clothes are really starting to fit differently!

That is fantastic! Are you eating ok? Exercising? Anything difficult?

I am so sorry for not responding! I didn't even realize I had a message. How are you doing? Are you feeling ok? Are you doing well with your new diet? Hope all is well and looking forward to hearing how you are doing!!

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Thank you! I have taken a little time to just breathe today. I focused on my Water and my premier Protein drinks. I got 44oz. of water down and two 12oz. Premier drinks down. I think I just needed a mini melt down to refocus on why I started this. I am great full for the kind comments and generous outpouring of support from all of you. Each day will be a better day and a stronger me! Thank you all!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you so much. I will have to read more from your journey.

Well I guess I will start from the beginning. I am a wife and mother of three amazing little boys. My oldest is 4, then 3, then 1 1/2. I use to be in fantastic shape, however I went through a terrible sexual assault my freshman year of college. After this happened I put on weight because I found that I wasn't getting the same responses from the opposite sex. This turned into a downward spiral of poor eating habits, terrible life choices and a real struggle with alcohol. After a 6 year haze of bad decisions, I finally told people about what had happened to me my first weekend at college. This was the first step in regaining the last shards of myself that was left. Once my family realized I wasn't just a screw up and that I was dealing with something on my own internally my life started to go in a positive direction. I cleaned up my act, I graduated from college, I have a wonderful job that I love, I met my husband, I got married, and had three beautiful boys! Here I am 15 years from that first moment that rocked my core to a person that is so happy with everything in their life other than their weight. I started this journey in August. At this time my husband or my family never asked any questions, never wanted to come to an appointment or really ever talk about what I was going through. The only things that were ever discussed were schedules for my boys for while I was in the hospital. It's just something none of them understand. I have not told my friends about having the surgery because they are all very thin and I honestly felt embarrassed and ashamed that I was going this route to try and help myself. I know this is not the easy way out, and I am a very strong person, I'm just feeling defeated. This is a topic that unless you have been overweight and felt the true struggle, you just can't understand. I'm sure my emotions are just all over because of just having surgery, anxiety of if this is working or will this work for me, just electively choosing to cut part of my stomach out, not being able to pick up my baby, and just healing in general. I know this was a lot, but this is all swirling in my head right now. My stats. I'm 32, starting weight was 278, I am 5ft 6in, my current weight is 249, my surgery date was 2-8-16, my children's ages are 4,3, and 1 1/2.

As of now I regret having the surgery! I am only a week post op, but every swallow of water or anything feels like it gets stuck. Yes I did take my comment down because it did hurt my feelings. I went into this journey alone and I still feel that way! I tried to reach out a few times to get support, but feel like it's a lost cause. I have been alone on this journey since August other than with my doctor and his staff. I don't know what I'm feeling, don't know if it will get better, and not sure if it was all worth it. I'm down 30 pounds since my 2 week preop diet and I don't go back to the doctor till next Thursday. I just feel depressed!

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Ok, so it is now 5 days post op. Feeling better. I never experienced acid reflux prior to surgery, and I believe that the discomfort that I have is just reflux. This is my 2nd day with no pain meds and I feel like I'm ok. Since my two week pre surgery diet, I am down 28.5 pounds!! This step was a place I could not get to with just diet and exercise alone in the last year. Right now I feel that I need to just listen to my body and figure out all these new sensations. I am still trying to differentiate hunger pain, surgical pain and fullness. Does this get easier?

I just had my sleeve done in Monday and I was able to come home last night. Anyone else have feelings that they made the wrong choice? I can handle the pain, but the nausea is killing me. Every time I try to drink anything it feels like liquid fire!! Anyone else experience this? If so how long does it last before you start feeling better. Thanks in advance!

Thank you all so much for your comments. I can't wait for this time to pass! Good luck to everyone!!

That is fantastic! Zofran has been wonderful so far. I think the nausea is the worst of it all.

That is very helpful! I think it burns because of the reflux. I have never had reflux until having this surgery. Today so far has been a pretty good day, it's just all so hard to wrap my head around.

I just kissed my three beautiful children while they were sleeping to say goodbye for a few days. On my way to the hospital now. I have so many mixed feelings. I am so super excited, and yet completely terrified. I'm ready to just be the best me that I can be! Please say an extra prayer for me and my family today! ????????????????????????

Best of luck to you also.im glad we have found a place that we can go to with our thoughts and fears and that everyone reading understands. I will also keep praying, especially on the 23rd. You are not alone either. ????

I have had my whole support system doing everything but supporting this life changing decision of mine. My surgery date is set for February 8th, and I feel like I just want to go to the hospital by myself to do this. I have been in this process since July. In that time I have not once felt like my family understands or even sympathizes. Perhaps I am just taking it all to heart, and maybe they are all more nervous and worried for me than I know, but it really hurts to feel like you are facing this all alone. I am really scared and nervous. I have three small children under the age of 4, I'm trying to keep myself positive but finding it very difficult. I'm not someone who gets super emotional, and I have had two mini melt downs today and I'm still a week pre op. Feeling defeated and could use some support.

That is great advice. Maybe being more specific will help everyone out. Good point on possibly not knowing myself what I actually need. Again, thank you for listening.

Thank you so much! It's just a topic someone doesn't understand unless they have walked down this path. I'm so proud of myself for taking the first step and starting this process. I just wish I wasn't pushing forward without my family. I can't wait to feel like me again and take my life back! Thanks again for your kind words.

I know exactly what you mean. I have had my whole support system doing everything but supporting this life changing decision of mine. My surgery date is set for February 8th, and I feel like I just want to go to the hospital by myself to do this. I have been in this process since July. In that time I have not once felt like my family understands or even sympathizes. Perhaps I am just taking it all to heart, and maybe they are all more nervous and worried for me than I know, but it really hurts to feel like you are facing this all alone.