HeatherGurl

Now Diva said everything I wanted to, but in better way! Thanks Diva!

DrewsLou~ I know what you are talking about when you said you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror! When I walk into the mall and catch a glimpse I just about kill over. I see a fat girl and then I realize it is me! Forgot about that feeling!!! Thanks for reminding me :cake:

Trish~ You sound like you are perfectly comfortable with yourself and you like the way you dress and look!!! That is just awesome! I wish I had half of your confidence and self esteem!

Do you mean Dr. Spivak? If so, I used the Physician's Surgery Center. I really liked everyone there! IT was very nice.

No anca, I was not referring to anyone in particular :cake:

To those who were "bothered" by my make up comment... I guess I should have been more specific... It does bother me when women do not take care of themselves... period. We were talking about large women so I made that comment. There are some woman who are beautiful without any makeup at all... (Vinesqueen, you said you didn't wear much and obviously you don't need to. You look very beautiful in your avator) BUT, my point is I have met so many women who have commented on how I always have nice clothes and my make up looks nice and they bitch because they don't look that way... It is not hard or expensive for any woman of any shape or size to take care of themselves. I beam with pride with I see a large woman dressed nicely with her hair fixed nicely and her make up (if any needed) looks nice... HELLO!!! We are fat!!! We are drawing attention to ourselves by being this overweight, why not look half assed decent??? Once again... if this comment bothered you, maybe you long to wear makeup? I don't know. If you are comfortable with the way you look then you shouldn't think twice about my OPINION. Just my opinion on the way I feel about things since this is what the thread was about... hating or being disgusted with fat people. I didn't want to hurt or step on any toes, I hope that I better explained myself. Yes, slobs that don't take care of themselves disgust me... any shape size, color, age, whatever.

I don't even think I can type everything I want to say after reading all 7 pages of posts... This thread has made me realize what a horrible person I am and how horrible my friends are!!! I have ALWAYS been fat, never have I been normal... but I always judge people by their looks. I know that it is because of my own insecurities, but I just hate it! Like, when I see a skinny girl, with a great body... I say" Yeah, she might be skinny, but she is UGLY, and I am fat a prettier than her". That is just horrible. I get embarassed to go anywhere with my aunt who I am sure is close to 600lbs and I always trash talk her to others because she doesn't do anything about it. I get embarassed when I got out in public with my 400lb sister, and that is just wrong. I wonder how many people have been embarassed by me! At my fattest I was 365 pounds!!! That is so unreal for me to say... and I still thought I was better than everyone. How did I get this mentality? Where did this come from? I do not HATE fat people, but it grosses me out when I see a fat person who doesn't dress as good as they could or doesn't wear make-up! It drives me nuts! I am going to work on becoming a better person starting right now!!!

What a difference, you go girl!!! You look awesome!!!

HELL YEAH!!! That is an awesome picture girl!!! That is definitely going on my list of TO DO's!!!

I need help!!! I am doubting myself today SO bad!!! I feel like I can not do this. I need someone to kick me in my butt and remind me why I had this surgery. I am starting this thread for my own personal reasons... but anyone can chime in for a kick in the ass or to tell me what I can do. I am going to keep track of EVERYTHING I put into my big fat mouth. I am going to keep track of any exercise I can bring my fat butt to do. DAY 1~ of Kick my Ass into Gear Large OJ from McDonalds~ 250 calories/57 carbs Large Iced Tea~ 0/0 Atkins Shake~170 cal/1 carb 2 bites of salad ~ (all that would go down) 1 slice cheesecake 1 cup hamburger helper Exercise: 4 flights of stairs floor exercises out of Cosmo Thigh Master~ 100 squeezes Stomach Crunches~ 10

Hi Tracy~ Dr. Spivak was my Dr. A couple of questions for you... How much weight do you need to lose? If you are only 200 lbs and considering WLS I am assuming you are vertically challenged (no offense) If you only have 60 pounds to lose it may come off a lot slower than someone that has 200 lbs to lose. You have to stick with a certain way of eating if you want to lose the weight. Like Dr. Spivak says... 50% of it comes off with the band alone and the other 50% is up to you! I have lost about 35lbs in 2 months... but I haven't been working out until here recently, and the past month I haven't been eating right... so I have not lost what I should. If you have any other questions, just let us know!!!

I may have missed it somewhere... but why can't you have another fill? Did your Dr. give you a reason, like will you not be able to eat and drink only Water? NewSho~I am pretty sure the band will help you maintain what you have lost so far. I can tell by your posts that you are very frustrated, so let it all out (like you are) that will be your best therapy. Figure out exactly what YOU want and get your butt to work accomplishing it! Anyone can do something if they put their mind to it. Please don't give up! If you want a BMI of 25, you might have to work your ass off to get there, but if that is what YOU want, then do it.

Hi, maggiek I think that the Dr. usually decides what band to place in you? I know someone will correct me if I am wrong ???? Good Luck!!!

Yes RNY is the Gastric Bypass. My guessing as to why the insurance companies choose it is just because Dr.'s have been doing it in the US longer???? Just my guess???

Welcome! That is a GREAT weightloss so far!

Way to go! You do look just awesome! I think you look perfect with all the right curves... You are doing a great job girl!

Thank goodness the scale move a tiny bit! :mad: I have been faithfully doing this stair thing and I think that in a few weeks I will be able to see results. I didn't do any other exercises last night though. I was just tired. My DH didn't get home until later and we were playing with the baby, so I just didn't feel like it. I know, excuses, excuses. At least I have been eating better. I am really trying to stay low carb now. The low cal thing has never worked for me, and now if I can just follow the bandsters rules and eat protein, veggies and then fruit, I will be ok. I need to go and do my stairs, but I think I will wait until after lunch so I can do it without anyone seeing the fat girl almost die :0 ) hahahah Heather

Thank goodness the scale move a tiny bit! :mad: I have been faithfully doing this stair thing and I think that in a few weeks I will be able to see results. I didn't do any other exercises last night though. I was just tired. My DH didn't get home until later and we were playing with the baby, so I just didn't feel like it. I know, excuses, excuses. At least I have been eating better. I am really trying to stay low carb now. The low cal thing has never worked for me, and now if I can just follow the bandsters rules and eat protein, veggies and then fruit, I will be ok. I need to go and do my stairs, but I think I will wait until after lunch so I can do it without anyone seeing the fat girl almost die :0 ) hahahah Heather

Thanks for all of the suggestions! I took it easy for 24 hours and I am fine. Cold is almost gone too! I ate earlier last night and it really helped.

Hey all~ I had my first major PB last night, I have had them before but this one I would call MAJOR. I ate a 6" pizza Sub from Subway (says Heather as she ducks from all the screaming I will get for eating something so bad) Well this morning I wake up with a horrible sore throat... and the sniffles. I have a cold, but I also think that I really irritated my esophagus last night. I tried to eat a salad at lunch and couldn't get any down. Should I stick with liquids and mushies to heal my throat? I think I have seen you guys post that here before. THANKS, and don't worry, I will never eat the BREAD BEAST again!!!

thanks everyone~

Well, today I fought the temptation to get on the scale! I have been working my ass off and I really hope when I get on the dang thing that it shows some results. I just feel like I am stuck, like I always get after 30-35lb weight loss and I wonder if I will ever be normal. I thought I needed a fill, but today at lunch I didn't eat much at all and had PLENTY of restriction. I guess it is because I am eating the right things... Hamburger Helper slips right thru my band so I am staying away from it! Well, today was day 4 of taking the 4 flights of stairs at work! Ugh, will it get easier? I just can not wait to put that pair of size 20 jeans on that I bought. I will know that I lost weight when I can fit into them!!! heather

Well, today I fought the temptation to get on the scale! I have been working my ass off and I really hope when I get on the dang thing that it shows some results. I just feel like I am stuck, like I always get after 30-35lb weight loss and I wonder if I will ever be normal. I thought I needed a fill, but today at lunch I didn't eat much at all and had PLENTY of restriction. I guess it is because I am eating the right things... Hamburger Helper slips right thru my band so I am staying away from it! Well, today was day 4 of taking the 4 flights of stairs at work! Ugh, will it get easier? I just can not wait to put that pair of size 20 jeans on that I bought. I will know that I lost weight when I can fit into them!!! heather

Hey Diane, I have seen your pictures and I really don't think that even when you get to your goal weight you will have that problem. There is a lady at work here that had the Gastric Bypass and everyone says that she looks older and wrinkly, but maybe in a year it will even out. Maybe since we are losing it slower it will not get too bad!

Hi and welcome to LBT. You have no fill that equals no restriction. You won't feel restriction until you get your first fill! Good Luck!!!!