Hello out there. I haven't had surgery yet...I haven't even sent in my packet questionaire to be submitted to the insurance company for approval/rejection. I went to the required seminar back in November and weighed in. I told them at the hospital that I wouldn't be able to have surgery until April because I live with my parents and they go to Florida for winters and won't be back to "take care" of me until then. They said to send in my packet around Jan./Feb. to get things going. I just received a call from the hospital asking if I was still interested. I haven't returned the call yet partly because she is only there until 3 pm and I work until 3:30...but also because I don't know what to say. Part of me wants to do the surgery but I am so unsure. I guess my biggest question is will the surgery make it impossible for me to binge eat? I know how to lose weight on my own and have done it many times...but I don't know how to keep it off and have always regained (plus more) the weight. I think to myself that the surgery is the answer to my horrible relationship with food and that doing the surgery is exactly what I deserve for a lifetime of bad habits. However...I just don't know if that is what the surgery will do for me. What if I have it done and I still want to eat too much food. I know I would get sick but does it help you to fight the urges? I just don't want to fail again and then this time change my body only to find out that it isn't going to change Me. I really want to have surgery and be successful and be able live a life free from this prison I've put myself in. I want to be healthy and hopefully get off all my medications and I want to believe that this is the ticket to that success. Can anyone shed any light on my confusion and second-guessing? Thanks. slh.
