Marina Pasto

Hello Everyone, My Name is Marina and I am 22 years old. I have struggled with my weight since I was a preteen. I was told many times throughout my early childhood that I had an under active thyroid. I was on thyroid medication for a solid 4 years until my mom's passing when I was 15. Being only fifteen, it was difficult when my mom was the one who made sure I was able to make it to all my doctors appointments, picking me up from school for them, checking in and getting my medication and etc. I ate with my emotions for years, but always had an active lifestyle, and asked the question millions of times, "Why am I still fat?". When My mother passed away, I was around 220 pounds, since then despite Weight Watchers, Medifast, NutriSystem and the latest program IdahoFatLoss. I am plumped up to 280 pounds. The accumulation of sports activities and a result of no weight loss, nor loss in pant sizes puzzled me. I started going to the doctor when I was 17 (When I gained my drivers licence) I told my doctor, not my doctor when I was fifteen, but my main PCM who was present, about my past issues with hypothyroidism. We tested everything, the whole nine yards, and the only thing that came up was some low Vitamin D, and a slight insufficiency with Iron. Since that first visit back I have asked the multiple doctors I have had to help. We started with stress, being put on antidepressants which only made it worse as for weight gain as well as panic and anxiety medication to add to that. It was a double edged sword that i was hit with. The zoloft, wellbutrin and other antidepressants all made me gain weight, and the multiple doctors just wanted to give me more meds to help me with my mood disorders instead of helping me with my weight. I am dependent upon my father for his military benefits ad he is completely understanding about my decision and would like me to try as hard as I can to get this surgery approved, as he has seen me struggle with my weight for so long. However I am to lose my benefits on my birthday May 9th of 2016. I know it is a great short notice but the only way I can see it as, is "Its now or never." I have an appointment to see my doctor to talk about it on January 29th, but I am terrified that he will tell me no. Does anybody have any pointers or encouragement they could offer? Also if anybody has any experience with TriCare West, could you leave your feedback? Another question, my boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year and a half. We go to the gym, and we eat the same stuff, not the same amount. What I mean by that is that he is a human garbage disposal. He can eat 24/7, cakes, Cookies, meat, bread, anything! and doesn't gain a pound. I am afraid to talk to him, only because, every diet that I have been on since I have been with him has failed. I just don't want him to see me as a quitter. I think he will be supportive, but I am just scare to bring up the subject. Any advice on bringing up the conversation.?