I absolutely felt the same way. In fact I would say to my friends, family, and doctor that "at what cost to me did i have this surgery?"
But it started turning around for me at the 4 month post op mark....Now I say "that i am so glad i had the surgery now". Please don't give on yourself. I didn't and now I feel like a million bucks....had surgery July 7th...lost a total of 79 lbs as of December 21st 2015...