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Of course, the 23 pounds didn't come off since 3-24! I started my liquid stage on 3-10-08 and since then I have lost 23 pounds and only 57 to go! It hasn't been nearly as difficult as I had anticipated. My doctor should clear me tomorrow to start excercising again (besides just walking). I've had my moments, but when I know I can't physically ingest something, it isn't that hard to stay away from it. I haven't been participating on the board since the surgery. I've actually been trying to get my head around this entire thing. To top it off, while I was in recovery, I got a call from my department and found out I had landed my dream job! I had been trying to get into this unit for years! And there it was! Wow! What a day. I did have to stay in the hospital for the night because I couldn't pee (sorry) on my own, but other than that everything was fine. Thank God for SF/FF jello! I do miss sodas, but it's worth the pay off. I go for my follow up tomorrow! Hope all is well with everyone! I can't figure out how to work my ticker! I don't know what my PIN is!

I started my 2 week liquid pre-op yesterday. It hasn't been that bad. I am a total apple shape as well, Panda. While I read your post, the first thing I thought of was "apple shape! oh no!". The more I read, however, I agree with the others about the possibility that the doctor was not completely up front with you. As far as the 30 pounds-if I can get through 48 hours on Isopure and raw veggies while juggling work and school and not smoking then I know you can lose that 30! Look at all you've already done! You should NEVER feel like a failure! You lost more weight than I ever could on my own. You should be proud. The doc's reasons may or may not have been on the up and up, but I do believe that God didn't want that band on you that day. Hang in there and all will fall into place! I understand the depression part, but you just have to hold on. I sound like a greeting card from the dollar store-but it's true! My bi-polar has made this experience even more interesting than expected. That's how I sound when I'm in a decent mood. Otherwise I would have said "this sucks and I want to eat my feet!" Bless you and best of luck!!!

I start my 2 week liquid phase on March 10. My surgery is March 24. My boyfriend and I are definite foodies. He is not overweight, he has so much muscle and has a physical job so, he doesn't deal with the same demons as I. I still have my bulimia demons, my "fascination" with proana/mia sites, my horrible habit of measuring myself up against every other woman in the room. It's crazy how someone so vain can be so insecure. I suppose vanity and insecurity are really one in the same. At any rate, I am ready and want this so badly! I had to be on clear liquids only for one day a couple of years ago for a procedure. I thought I would die! Now I think about people who have no food and go to bed hungry every night. That didn't always keep me from eating a roll of cookie dough (boy, those days are over!). I am hoping that looking at the liquid fasting as a sort of religious and detoxifying experience will make it easier and prove to myself that I can control what I put into my body. People fast in prayer for days to show their devotion to God. I should be able to drink liquid protein for two weeks without wigging out. I guess we never really know until we have to do it for ourselves. I am so glad you all are here. This forum has been a lifesaver! yummy! a butterscotch lifesaver! Do those come in sugar free?

:rolleyes2:I FINALLY GOT APPROVED!!! I've been working on this since May 2007 and I just got approved! Yay!!!! I am so freakin' excited! I love this forum! I have learned so much here! My insurance company (Aetna) and my insurance coordinator didn't seem to speak the same language and there was nothing but total miscommunication for so long! I took matters into my own hands and obtained copies of my info yesterday and faxed it this morning and got a call back TODAY! I don't really know why the insurance coordinator is on the payroll at my doctor's office, but who cares-I'VE BEEN APPROVED. I'm hungry already:wink2: I have so much support from my fiance' and this forum is just the cat's pajamas, so I can do this! Now I have to post a ticker and a picture and....wow! I'm so excited! So many of you have helped me with your posts and don't even know it. Thanks!

I was definitely thinking of a last meal before my 2 week pre-op begins. My fiance' says he wants to go hit all of our favorite spots before the pre-op, Outback, Olive Garden, Sonic (shakes!), Chili's. I have to admit I wasn't quite thinking so big. I think I would just like to have a nice steak dinner before the pre-op. I would probably have dessert since I've been avoiding refined sugars and sweets for a few weeks. He says he won't be able to eat in front of me. I think he'll change his mind on that one. He has to have his gall bladder removed soon, so he won't be doing any pigging out, either. I guess since I've changed my eating habits over the past few weeks it's easier to wrap my head around the thought of adjusting to this transition. We'll see!

I think it is a really pathetic attempt at a compliment from people who don't really think about what they are saying to you. It's like they are assuming that you should be happy as a clam because you are getting a compliment of any kind. Riiiiight. If you are pretty you are pretty-at one hundred or at three hundred pounds. I like the way my therapist responded when I told her that I was going to be banded. She said, "Wow, you are beautiful now but after that you will be a devastating beauty". Of course, she is a therapist and knows how to talk to people!

Well, I'm waiting on my insurance company to give the go ahead. I started "the program" at the end of May 2007. I have jumped through all of the hoops and now I'm just waiting to hear the word. I am really looking forward to it. I have been able to lose some weight on my own in the past month or so. I have quit smoking-I had no idea my hair smelled so good! I am looking forward to reading the posts on here and posting some of my own. I haven't done one of those timeline thingies yet-I will after I am banded. I am at 238 and would like to be around 150 or so. Everything looks great on my blood work, except my doctor said that I will end up with metabolic syndrome and ultimately diabetes if I don't do something STAT! My dad and mom are both diabetics. Being genetically predispositioned to the disease, I finally decided that I couldn't go through what they have been through. I have to clock back in, but I am looking forward to more reading! Thanks for all of the info!:cool: