123015

HI I GO BY THE NAME 123015.. THE REASON I CHOSE THIS NAME WAS TO REMIND ME OF WHERE I WAS GOING,WHAT I WAS GOING TO DO, AND WHERE I WAS HEADED. IT WAS THE MEANING THAT ON THIS DATE I WOULD BE HAVING MY SURGERY. I DID NOT WANT TO USE ANY OTHER NAMES, BECAUSE I FELT THAT THIS MEANT MORE TO ME, AND IT WOULD ALWAYS REMIND ME OF WHERE I CAME FROM AND WHERE I AM HEADED. 
 
AT THIS PARTICULAR TIME MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY HAS BEEN ONE HELL OF A MESS. I FIRST STARTED LOOSING WEIGHT ABOUT 3YRS AGO. IT HAS BEEN A CONSTANT STRUGGLE. I WAS ON THE VERGE OF HAVING GASTRIC BYPASS, YEARS AGO WHEN IT WAS FIRST INTRODUCED, AND I GOT COLD FEET. MIND YOU I WAS ALL THE WAY TO THE WEEK OF SURGERY AND BACKED OUT. SO THEN I SAID, YOU KNOW WHAT LET ME JUST TRY TO LOOSE IT ON MY OWN. I WOULD WALK, JUMP ROPE, AND HAD EVEN JOINED CURVES AND ANY TIME FITNESS. IT WAS STARING TO COME OFF, BUT NOT LIKE I WANTED IT TOO. SO I WENT TO MY DR. AND SHE WAS LIKE, YOUR WEIGHT IS CRAZY. YOU ARE 398 LBS AND AND THIS IS NOT GOOD. I DID NOT FEEL LIKE I WAS THIS HEAVY, BUT THE SCALE WAS NOT LYING. I WAS WEARING A SIZE 28-32 AND CLOTHES WERE STARTING TO GET TOOOOOOO EXPENSIVE. SO I MENTIONED TO A FRIEND OF MINE THAT I WANTED TO LOOSE WEIGHT. HE SAID DO YOU REALLY? AND I SAID YES. IT WAS NOTHING LIKE I HAD EXPECTED, BUT I FELT GOOD THAT SOMEONE WAS SO EAGER TO PUSH ME SINCE I DID NOT HAVE THE WILL-POWER TO DO IT ON M OWN. WE DID EVERYTHING THAT WOULD BOOST UP MY DRIVE AND ALL. BUT IT WAS STILL AS IF THE WEIGHT WAS NOT COMING OFF. LOOSING 1-3LBS HAD ME IN TEARS MANY DAYS AND NIGHTS. SO I WENT BACK TO MY DR. AND I TOLD HER THAT I WAS NOT ABLE TO DEAL WITH THIS AND I WANT THIS WEIGHT OFF. SO WE STARTED WITH ADEPEX. IT WORKED AND I MEAN IT WORKED!!!!! I HAD STARTED DROPPING THE WEIGHT BUT WAS NOT AWARE THAT IN ORDER TO REALLY MAKE THE PILLS WORK YOU REALLY HAD TO CHANGE UP THE EATING HABIT. SO I STARTED DOING SUBWAY ON WHEAT WHICH I HATED WHEAT BREAD BECUZ OF THE WAY IT TASTED. SO EVERYTHING THE PERSON I WAS TRAINING WITH WAS DOING, YEP... MONKEY SEE MONKEY DO, I WAS DOING IT. SO WHEN I WENT BACK TO THE DR., I HAD LOST 20LBS IN A MONTH. I WAS SO EXCITED. BUT THEN IT STARETED COMING OFF LIKE 5LBS HERE AND THERE AND THEN I STARTED BACK GAINING 3LBS HERE AND THERE. I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND Y OR HOW, SO I BECAME DISGUSTED. MY PROBLEM WAS THAT I WAS NOT A H2O DRINKER FROM THE GET GO. BUT SEE NOW.... HE IS MY BEST BUD...LOL.
 
IN ORDER FOR ME TO CONTINUE TO BENEFIT FROM THIS PROCEDURE IS TO KEEP DOING WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST MONTH(EATING HABITS) AND WORKING OUT. I PLAN TO NEVER GO BACK TO WHERE I CAME FROM BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS HEAVY IN ALL OF MY LIFE. MY WEIGHT HAS ALWAYS BEEN 110-140 LBS. AND TO LOOSE CONTROL, IS A MIND CHALLENGE THING. THIS WEIGHT JUST CAME ON AFTER 2 BABIES AND WOULD NOT EXIT. I NEVER HAD A STOMACH ALWAYS HAD A FLAT BELLY AND WAS EEVN A FITNESS TRAINER IN MY YOUNGER DAYS. SO TO GO FROM BEING SO BUILT AND TONE AND KNOWING RIGHT FROM WRONG, WAS JUST AN INCONSIDERATE ROUTE TO GO. BUT KNOW, I AM ON A NEW JOURNEY TO GET BACK TO WHERE I WAS OR AT LEAST BETTER THAN WHAT I WAS, AND PROVE THAT NO MATTER WHERE YOU CAME OR COME FROM, IF YOU ARE DETERMINED AND WANT SOMETHING SO BADDDD, YOU HAVE TO STAY PERSISTENT AND KEEP MOTIVATED. DON'T LET ANYONE OR ANYBODY TELL YOU THAT YOU TOOK THE EASY WAY OUT. BECUZ YOU DIDN'T IF YOU HAVE PUSHED JUST AS HARD AS I HAVE.