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OUCH!! I feel compassion for all and we all have one common problem we are overweight. We have gone to extremes and we all hurt in many ways. Fear od the unknown always captures the essence of the human core and I think we are all afraid of being fat getting sick or dying for that matter... but we do what need to do do out of our fear fear of staying fat feeling ugly and unwanted... Yes- we go to extremes and as Yoda would say Choice we make Elda

WOW right there with you!!! I want to eat then I eat and OWWW. and I am like what do I do now??? I feel bad cause I ate then I feel physically bad and then ARGGG.BUT.... i come to the board or call a friend or go walk on the tredmill or drink water. I am learning a new and better way YOU CAN DO IT. I get phenomenal support on this board. You are not alone friend. Some days are better than others. A counselor or someone objective is very helpful . My husband is not when I am in my stress eating I become not nice and need an objective source to settle me down. This to shal pass I know we don't always like to hear that but its true. DEEP BREATH EXHALE Elda

Banded 10/3/05 This is not a miracle cure friends... hard work still necessary.... I have lost approx 20# and am concered about behavior of mine!! not the band ... my band is fine I have to work with me!!I have still after hundreds of diets felt the most pleased with this method. I was a binger this helps me with that. I would definatly do it agian but like this time with alot of support and a real will to change my life. Out of desperation ALONE no... this would not help me. Elda

I was banded on 10/3/05 and have lost over 20#'s. I have had two fills approx 1.5 cc total... everytime it is getting close to visit my doctor (12/20) It seems I become a bottomless pit!!! I have been able to eat soooo much these last few days ARGGG! And the worst of it is my old behavior trys to creep in. I feel like Oh well I have no restriction I can eat Yeah Then my husband looks at me and I look at my plate and I am like WHAT ARE YOU DOING SILLY LADY!!! I am angry lonely tired and HUNGRY. But I don't think I am hungry in my belly. I recently was delayed on some work at school and my husband and I haven't had sex in......... and I feel like what the hell am I doin this for??? Then one of our houses has not leased for 4 months and we are paying two morgateges. I have never been this broke ARGGGGG I want to eat and eat and eat. The band was awesome and then these last few days when it would stop my shoveling (after about a cup and a half of food) all of a sudden changed. Last night i ate like I was smoking crack MORE MORE MORE Give me another shot of heroin .....WOW this is crazy. Now I am petrified like on my other million diets that I have screwed up and I can't make up for it. Like and idiot I weighed myself this moring . Something I swore I would never do after a bad day. What is this-- self sabotage? I am my own worst enemy. And cursed if everyone isn't saying WOW you look GREAT how much have you lost. Major trigger for me to say oh I can eat again I look better. I am losing my mind. I need for this not to be another dead end. I have been praying and reading posts and though I usually lurk decided I had to post or explode. Sorry this was long but I feel better knowing I am not alone in this crazy behavior. Elda

Congrats !! How exciting

Thanks i need that encouragement Elda

I have a chihuahua Lupie 10 chocolate brown with alot of gray 3 pounds. My baby. then Sierra My aussie red tri 5 with a beautiful white mane. She is SOOOO smart 40 #'s. then Akilla (she used to bite my husbands achilles when she was a pup) she is 4 and a leapord dog all colors not so smart but a runner long and sleek 60 #'s tall.They make us very happy. Especiallly when Lupie lets everyone know she is the alpha Sierra is laying on her back on my husbands lap lupie is curled up under the pillow and akilla is sleeping with my son. Gnight Elda

Hola, Finishing dissertation for my PhD in Nursing. I have a real hard time on my writing and data entry days. I also teach and the end of the semester is always hard alot of paper grading and .... It makes me crazy. I have to very carefully. Elda

Why am I fat???? 1. I love food... I thought food loved me. 2. I am lonely. 3. I am a manipulator. I manipulate myself. 4. I carry alot of shame. 5. I confuse boredom with hunger. 6. I don't pay attention to myself. I take care of everyone else. 7. I need the FEELING food gives me even if it is for a split second sometimes. 8. I need the unity food brings with groups of people. 9. I try to fill myself

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Hola, I was banded 10/3/05 I was frustrated also but I made the decision to have this surgery not because it was a miricle cure but because I needed help with the AMOUNT that I eat. I still have to have some control over my self. I was working on a paper ( I am finishing PhD) and I freaked out.... I ate all day long ARGGGG. BUT I watched what I ate and realized I have to deal with the stress better. So that night I had to really evaluate a plan for what I was going to do the next time. I have had a fill and it has done nothing yet my doc said it would be awhile and a few more fills. I have to keep it together til then. At least I now I am not alone and can come here for support. Good luck Elda

Hola I quit 5 years ago after 23 years YOU CAN DO IT!!!! I miss it sometimes but life is better this way. I don't stink all the time. You will notice the difference soon after you quit. I used the patch. Good luck Oh yeah the cranky does get a little bad until you get better. Elda

Hola all I am in the medical field and everyone knows. I am also an alcoholic sober for 10 years and everyone knows that too. I tell people because I need the fishbowl for both my alcohol and my eating.When people ask I get pissed but thats just because I am getting into old behavior. I get over it and start eating right. I was embarassed at first because I too felt " easy way out" until I really got informed about the procdure. This is NOT easy!!!! This is still about changing behavior and getting to the core of the compulsion. Anyway ... one day at a time TODAY I did not overeat. Elda Good luck

WOW I can't wait to join you!!!

Hola all, I am A patient of Terry Scarbrough in Houston. I have a question.... What does restriction feel like? I am eating really slowly and chewing my mushy very well.... I am hungry and only eat a little when I am hungry. But I ate more than usual yesterday ( a few oz) but I felt like a bottom less pit. I was banded Oct 3rd. Now also when I belch I usually don't eat much after that is that restriction? Also is anyone else from Houston? Elda

I have pcos and found out many years ago. I have lost weight before but it was a serious struggle and I always gained it back. I have the thick chin hair I have to manage daily and my addiction to the sugar becaus of the insulin resistance was unbearable I was like a maniac without my sugar fix I would literally have to lay down or stop my car I would get so drowsy with my insulin spikes. Yes losing weight is very possible I was banded two weeks ago and this is a tool . I have to work very hard on keeping myself out of trouble with the sweet stuff I personally like salty carbs like bread chips and other unspokens. I am also having a real hard time with pregnacy I have and awesome son who is eight but I have had 3 miscarriages in the last 3 years. I finally decided it was me or the food one of us was going to win. I am taking it one day at a time and staying focused. It os possible anything is I just had to make a decision that I really wanted to do this and be done with the food as my master and commander. (good movie) Anyway Good luck Elda

You are awesome!! I am so glad you feel well. The attitude is what it is all about. Elda

I went to the Dr. I did my liquid diet with and asked for my recored I made copies of all my weight watchers stuff from the weight watchers group I had gone to (multiple times) and I gave the name of the nutritionist from the liquid diet group. and the one I saw when I was a gestational diabetic. I also listed from teenage years how many times and ways I attempted to lose weight and how long it lasted. It was really sad to see my journey on paper of a compulsive overeater and obese woman. It inspired me though... I hope this helps Elda

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Hola, Mine was 10/3/05 In at 6A out by 2p and I was sore a while did a 10 hour shift on day 4 and one on day 5. I am a little crazy (and broke) but I took it easy and stopped when I needed to. Hubby was great so was my son. All friends were calling asking if I was okay. Most of them want to do the procedure also but I am the quinea pig. So far so good Good luck to both of you!!!I will be thinkin about you. Elda

Hola all:Bunny I am Elda got banded on Oct 3 Dr. Scarbrough. I have been following for a while pre op. I am excited to collaborate on the crazyness of the band experience. I have been on mushy for 2 days. I have a great Nurse Practitioner working with me that works with Scarbrough she is great ... Oh! I am in Houston.I am looking forward to getting to know all of you. Elda

I like LB bras and some of their tops. But I too can't waint until I don't have to shop there anymore. Elda

Hola, I got banded 10/3/05. Dr. Scarbrough Houston