Wow, just Wow. I'm so glad you are feeling much better, and I'm so sorry that you had all the complications that you did. I know that you feel weak right now, but I am inspired by your strength and perseverence. Do not let your spirit be daunted. You have been through so much, and I am hopeful you are in the clear. Keep your eyes on the future and at the more healthy you, you have earned it.
Someone recently told me that surgery was "the easy way". That is not true for anyone, and more so for you. But you will get better, just hang in there. We all have our own paths to take. Over time your body and your mind will get stronger. We will try to keep encouraging you. Press on.
Hopeful for you