amandakaye

So I'm new here. I had gastric bypass surgery on February 7th 2012. I had decided about a year prior that it was the best decision for me. At that point in my life I had attempted every type of weight loss aside from illegal drugs or starving myself. I was a gym addict. Portion controlled. No snacking. I was seeing a dietician. I had been checked multiple times to see if there was anything health wise that was hindering my weight loss. Nothing. Couldn't lose a pound. So at age 23 and 311 lbs. I had RNY. It was difficult at first. I remember the miserable feeling when I woke up that next day. The first time I tried to eat something my stomach didn't agree with post surgery. But I knew I would be a happier me after all was said and done. I struggle with depression still. Not from the surgery but just in general. So it hasn't been easy for me. But now, here I am, 4.5 years later and I've hit a plateau at 180lbs. I'm me. More me than I've ever been before. I work my butt off. I hike and swim. Practically lived in a bikini all summer when I wasn't at work. I'm at the gym religiously. I eat right and take my vitamins. The worst part still is meeting someone. My self esteem didn't change with the weight loss. I had dated someone for 6 years up until a year or so after I had the surgery and it ended suddenly. I've dated on and off since then but I struggle. So I'd like to meet someone who is on the same playing field as me. Someone who understands the emotions and struggle associated with this new lifestyle. Just looking for a friend.

I did not. I believe I'm too young for plastic surgery. I'd love to have children one day and if I ever have plastic surgery I'd rather wait til after I have kids.